Morning all, room for another one on the bus?
I drink far too much, my tolerance levels are sky high and so I drink even more to get the same numbing effect. I've been alcohol dependant for many years, too many years.
Last night I drank four litres of strong cider. 
I don't remember much of the evening. I do know that I was vile to my dad over the phone. The man is 78 and shouldn't have to take slurred abuse.
I then had to wait for dh to wake up to ask if I owed him or dd an apology.
I've tried cutting down, I stick to it for a week or two and then there's always a reason why I need to drink again.....I've had a bad day, I'm tired, I'm sad, I'm happy etc etc and I'm back to waking up with that dread of not knowing what shit I've done now.
I'm a shit role model for my dd, she's 14 and says she will never drink after seeing what it does to me. I've never been vile to her when drunk, just dh and dad. But that's still not good enough.
So today, the worm is turning for good. Teetotal-ville here I come.
I'm going to need a lot of hand holding.