DRY 7!!!

[mollyonthemove]

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Morning,I started drinking again last september,after a good run of sobriety. Life was really hard and I wasn't strong enough to resist. I remembered some of what I had learned though and moderated my drinking although,it was still way too much.

I've sort of kept going with the understanding I gained from that time and I am having another stab at sobriety. I feel happy and calm and just want to be sober,very different from the first time I tried.

Very early days here but going well. I'm so pleased that this thread is still going and that there are so many resources- they are needed!

I just wanted to say hi and to chunter on about the processes involved for me,going from heavy drinking to sobriety then,encountering problems but still wanting to achieve sobriety again.I think that so much has happened during that time that I am almost a different person. I am not going to put the slightest pressure on myself because that doesn't work for me.
Meditation seems to be key. I like to of it as exercise for the mind and let go of the 9 squllion things I 'should' have done. If I can stay sober and have some time to meditate then that's enough for one day.

Congrats sigma and hello again guggenheim :) We're all still here doing our thing and it's nice to have you back.
Juggling roll on tomorrow!
Nice day here after the last two grimmers. Been for a run already and yep I'm with you on the meditation guggenheim. Do a headspace meditation every day and it is fab

Hi Guggenheim - good to hear from you! Interesting that you are feeling calmer this time around; I think sometimes these things need to happen when we are ready for them. Anyway, lovely to have you back.

Molly Corfu sounds fantastic. I hope you have a really wonderful time. I think being sober in the heat is great. Hangovers are particularly grim in hot climates IMHO….

Deeply jealous of everyone running, shredding etc. My knee is still healing so can barely walk let alone do real exercise. Hard for me as I find exercise really improves my mood and keeps me on track. Hey ho. Just a matter of time…

Wishing everyone a happy AF day!

Afternoon all.
How is everyone's bank holiday going ?
I am really struggling tonight, which I knew I would be. I always want a drink after being on call, sort of a way to release all the stress I think.
I'm going to stay strong though. V early night I think as I'm shattered as well.
Have kept busy painting the fence and gardening today.... But have sort of had enough now.

Hope everyone has had nice af days.

Good to hear from you again gugg, really pleased you feel so different about it this time. I think to keep trying is the main thing. I did do meditation for a while but it's fallen by the wayside lately, must start again.

Lovely to have Corfu to look forward to molly. Also jealous as I'm not getting away this year with moving house.

I would find that difficult too merse. No exercise definitely makes me a bit grumpier.

Early night sounds good bobbly. The first few times after being on call may be difficult as it's a habit but honestly there will come a time when you don't even think about it.

Have struggled a bit myself today, had sod it I could just buy some wine and forget about it for the night thoughts. I know it's simply tiredness. Dd has been sleeping horrifically since we've moved, not settling properly to am and up countless times after that. I feel like I have a baby on my hands again and was reduced to tears this morning. Have walked the little legs off her today in the vain hope exhaustion may bring a more settled night. Wish me luck

Fallen off the wagon :( Feel very ashamed of myself :(

what happened glad what were the trigger, how did your mind get you there?

Lots of water, vitamins and good food today. Don't feel ashamed, put it behind you and move forward strongly.

Exactly as Corn says glad. No point in punishing yourself with being ashamed, it's done and over. Can you identify any triggers? That could turn it into a positive - every little slip is another lesson learned about how our minds work when it comes to alcohol. It makes us stronger and more resolved next time. We've all been there, be kind to yourself

Morning everyone,glad don't be ashamed, just pick yourself up and remember today is a bright new shiny day. It's Tuesday! Today is going to be an alcohol free day. The fridge is empty of wine because I drunk it all over the weekend. Trigger time is between 5 & 6 this evening so planning to keep very busy and also get the tea pot out. DC2 has a very important footie game tonight, her school team has made the finals for our city, am very proud and very excited. Hope it's not too stressie. I'm also going to vow right here and right now that I AM NOT going to be crabby with the kids or DH later.

I was A, L and T. Not H, though - that's another thing I did that I should not have :( Blew the diet yesterday evening as well with loads of carbs :(
I had a great weekend, but I got very tired - so my resistance was low. Also had a teen who was very very rude so I went to another room to get away from teen rudeness. And lo, I was back into the old pattern of pre dry evenings - on the computer, alone, cross. So I had a couple of glasses of wine and some flapjack.

Oh well, today is another day. Have had a good long sleep, vitamins, lots of water and am about to go and cuddle a chicken. Feel ok actually as I didn't have much to drink but still annoyed with myself for doing so.

Thanks for all the concern :) Will keep busy tonight and stay in company of OH and read and crochet - if I don't sneak off alone I can't drink in secret :) Onwards and upwards :)

Good learn glad Onwards indeed

7.30, trigger time has been and gone, I'm feeling good, haven't shouted at DH or kids. Found sobermommys blog, she could be me. Which is scary. But at least I can read her day by day account of her sobriety journey. DCs footie team won! They have a massive shield and medals, they're a great bunch of kids. I get to do it all again tomorrow when they have the play offs for their league. That will cover trigger time too. One day at a time.

Ace Juggling :)

evening all
juggling* well done! and well done to dc!

glad I agree - use it as a learning point and move forwards.

last hope dd slept a bit better last night for you.

well, I am glad I didn't give in and drink last night cause I have been shattered today which has also been a frantically busy day - so at least I was not trying to cope with a hangover!
I'm now in bed sipping an ovaltine!
I'm on call again tomorrow night so will be safe from temptation...
Thursday will be hard though cause it will be day after on call and I'm off on Friday so I know I will want to drink Thursday night - I'm going to put some plans in place to try to prevent any possibility!

Hope everyone else is doing well.

Thanks all :)

Just really cross I blew such a long stretch of time dry - (more than 100 days ! ) for a bit feeling tired, cross and down so had a couple of glasses of wine :(

Oh well. Learn from the mistake and move on I guess. Today has been a consciously busy day to compensate. Lots done and a good day as a result.

Well done glad, bobbly, ace, thanks for your kind words. Hello day 2! It took me an absolute age to get to sleep last night, normally the 'anaesthetic' would have me flat out by 10.30 but then awake by 3 or 4, needing a wee and gasping for a drink. Last night the latter did not happen though, once I fell asleep after sweating for a bit, I stayed asleep. Committing to a dry day again today. Have a great day everyone.

morning
glad I'm glad you had a positive day. moving on is a plan!
jungle it will take a while for your sleeping to sttle I should think. Well done though.

On call tonight so no temptation for me.
Have woken up still shattered and feeling very fed up and grumpy though.
had to pop into Morrisons last night and bought myself to plants for the garden instead of 2 bottles of wine! Think I'm going to save my drinking money and spend it on the garden - at least that cheers me up!
right, off to get the gang up and off to school then to work....

two not to!

Morning,
Thanks for the welcome . I'd forgotten about sober sleeping- bloody hell it's taking me ages to wake up and I'm shattered by the evening,but in a good,normal,I can feel my feelings kind of way.

I managed a day at work and cooking a meal from scratch without booze last night. I felt much better for not being several glasses down.

One of my triggers for drinking again was that I stopped sleeping well last year and it affected how I felt about my sobriety (why bother being sober if I can't sleep?) With time I can see that I wasn't sleeping due to worrying about certain situations. I'll try and be aware of that in the future.

Today might prove to be a big test because I have a day off and of course that's a trigger for a drink ?????

I have no intention of drinking and will not be buying any wine when I go shopping.

Happy wednesday all.

Morning gugg, have a or , have a lovely day off.

hi everyone, well the AF day was followed by a huge binge :(

But feeling OK today and trying to be positive

Onwards and upwards Sigma, Rome wasn't built in a day and all those other useless platitudes. I was just driving to an appointment trying to convince myself that I could be a social drinker, that I don't have a bit of a problem. And then it dawned on me that I don't know anybody else that was thinking about alcohol before they even got out of bed this morning. Admittedly that's because I'm trying to stop drinking but even so.......

Oh well done to both you and your dc juggling. How'd they get on today?

She's not so bad bobbly thanks for asking. Unfortunately now ds's asthma is bugging him with a cough so he was up instead. I think my kids are trying to slowly kill me through lack of sleep I like the idea of spending wine money on the garden.

I get that gugg. I fell by the wayside mainly when I injured myself and couldn't run for a while, kind of like well I can't do this now I may as well start smoking and drinking again. Made me aware not to put all my eggs into one basket and build more recovery tools around me this time. Hope you enjoyed your day off.

Hope everyone is well today and had a positive one :)

morning all
I had a fairly quiet night on call, but have woken up feeling shocking again. Sooooo tired. I'm guessing it is just my body healing itself....

Am going to have to stay strong tonight as I've just finished my run of on - calls and I'm off tomorrow so would usually be a definite wine night...Mind you I am so tired right now I could quite happily go back to bed straight after work!!
Although I may actually dig out my running gear and try a very short run later...if I can find the courage and motivation...

last my dc go through phases where they seem to take it turns to not sleep well for one reason or another! Hope you get a good night's sleep soon.

sigma you managed one day and you can do it again. Be gentle on yourself, dust yourself off and start again. You can do it.

gugg hope you had a good day off with lots of lovely af treats

jungle how was sleeping last night? any better?

right, I need to get the gang up and mobilised. Have a good day everyone.

Morning everyone, DCs team won! They have cup finals on Saturday now. She then had a sleepover as schools are closed for voting today and I had a small glass of white wine when I dropped her off and a small glass of red with dinner. I actually don't feel too bad about it even though I should, normally I'd have downed a bottle or bottle and a half quite quickly. It highlights how our friendship group are all so bloody boozy. But at least I had one day of not drinking and am fully intending today to be dry too. Keep the faith everyone, you're all doing brilliantly. Might dig out my joggers later too...