Hiya everyone, I'm at the very beginning of my journey and struggling a lot try to keep it short.
I have one child with physical problems and one child currently undergoing a diagnosis for a learning disability or autism, along with the fact his speech is extremely poor it's difficult to understand him.
So I do know why I started drinking it started a couple of years ago when I realised, my childdisorder er be able to write, speak properly, be fully independent. He's in mainstream school, fits in socially, just not academically but he has a education plan in place. My other son has had a problem for years,throwing up after food, been referred to a specialist finall. He was born with no enamel on his teeth also, so his teeth are in poor condition with 3 needing to be removed under general anaesthetic.
That's a glimpse into it really, I have pediatrician appointments, speech therapy appointments, CAHMS, occupational therapy, gastroenterology, dentists, doctors,school appointments most monthly.
In 8 days I have drank twice, which is better than the daily but still feeling like a failure.
Overall I can cope with my boys, they are my world heart soul,I'll carry them for as long as they need as for my youngest that will probably be the rest of my life and I will do that he's my perfect beautiful boy. Both are perfect.
I got stressed and accidentally self medicated, I am now on proper medication thank goodnes. needing to quit, due to family history of alcoholism and the fact that it's not helping anymore at first it did,alcohol is insidious I don't know how it built up, all I know is it needs to stop. I don't enjoy alcohol at all yet I continue to drink it. Really just looking for a little support, someone to talk to, as I have a lovely supportive family but don't want to worry or burden them. To know I'm not alone. Sorry it's long and personal and thankyou for reading x