Welcome Yougotafriend to our little bar. Drinks are on the house, crying is free. It sounds like you made a very tough decision - and it's not something you're just going to 'get over' in a heartbeat, let alone five months. May I ask a question? What help/support have you made use of so far? (None is fine as an answer!) It's easy to pretend to all and sundry that all's 'fine' - the "faking it til you make it" approach but to be honest that can be very counter-productive, when actually what you need is a lot of friendly, non-judgemental support that reminds you THIS SHIT IS HARD! Help come in many guises from friend's/family's ears, doctors, counsellors, solicitors, Women's Aid, Right's of Women, MN and the members of Hobbit's Bar. Let us know if there's anything you think we can help you on specifically. If not, have a barnstormingly good rant. We're good like that - rants are considered healthy here.
ali, Is your blood pressure is high because you're a drama llama 
- no didn't think so. That is the most objective indicator you've got that THIS SHIT IS HARD. With every single stage often the fear of it is worse than the doing of it, if that makes sense. And to hell if you burst into tears when you tell people you're separating. Not a single person told me 'don't cry' and it remains one of my biggest regrets I didn't tell people sooner. People can't help until they know. Most people are fantastic even when I dribbled snot on their shoulders. Just so you know!
Izzie I've been wondering if you've been overdoing it for a while, so this enforced (albeit painful!) rest is your body's way of saying 'nuff for now'. I get migraines these days (about twice a month if not more), which is something I'd barely get twice a year in my old life. This pressure cooker existence does take it's toll after a while, so it's little wonder you've had a bit of backwards step. Have a good cry, a good moan and a good rest (and a few fags!).
roz I got a twitching eye as well! Walking 'round winking at everyone when I already felt like a social pariah probably tipped me over the edge!
Right. I'm falling off the wagon tonight just so you know. I'm fed up with being worried about the future and I'm sick to death of job-hunting and getting nowhere. It's been an odd day - had a stroke of fortune - literally someone knocked on the door and said 'can I buy that?' to something I own so I sold it for a good price. Got a very thoughtful present from MrsC, who is still dealing with fuckwittery, I'm sad to report. The fuckwittery that is - I'm not sad about the thoughtful present! Rather delighted as it goes.
Then car broke down. Shiney new car is still in garage (broke down just before Easter) so I'm having a pity party for one [am hiding in wine cellar so you'll all just have to raid bar yourselves!]. And I know these are minor issues, compared to what I've survived, but I've decided I'm having a WWK-self endorsed meltdown with my own permission. So there.
As for this thread. I am more than happy to keep propping up the bar. I get something out of passing on the support and advice that I got so kindly from other MNetters behind the scenes when things were tough for me. One of the things I love about this thread though is that it has a real community feel with different OPs, so after thread five, someone can think of taking the baton on then perhaps?
And hello to old friends who have previously been regulars, as always KOKO (which means Keep on keeping on), which is far more succinct than:
WYAGTHKG!
Work that one out cryptic fans!