Support thread for survivors of childhood sexual abuse PART 5

[CailinDana]

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The purpose of these threads is to allow survivors of childhood sexual abuse, their partners, friends, or parents, to talk in a safe place about what they think and feel. Nothing is off limits or taboo, just say what you want to say.

www.rcpsych.ac.uk/mentalhealthinfoforall/problems/depression/antidepressants.aspx

and also this one:

www.rcpsych.ac.uk/mentalhealthinfoforall/problems/postnatalmentalhealth/postnataldepression.aspx

night Cailin x

dotty - do you want contact with her? sorry if youve already explained this bit

Night Cailin x

I miss her she's my mum but we never that close my dad saw to that

yep, can understand the missing her part

do you think if you just went to her place one afternoon, didnt tell any other family members and just went with (cheesy sounding) cake to offer, would it help you or not at all

tell me if I'm barking up wrong tree here, but just that you sound like you just want time alone and at peace with her?

No Belle although I miss her I can't forgive her she still treats IT like the sun shines out of his arse call me what you want unchristian etc but it's the way I feel I do want to confront her but I'm not allowed to.

Think it's more that I wanted her to be my mum how mad is that at my age we got a bit closer after dad died and I did loads for her and she was company that I never had maybe its being useful that I miss really don't know.

she's maybe treating IT like that because of fear? not to directly hurt you?

God no she adores him it's always been that way he's the golden child

[rolly crazy eyed face]

ah shit, that is shit. Sorry Dotty, wish I had proper words, but so annoyed that these toxic family members for us here on this thread are so oblivious to so much hurt they have and continue to cause

put up some protective armour on yourself and let them run on dotty, they just are a headwreck. easier said than done, sorry, it is not easy.

the only thing that has helped me so much as I said to amotola is being kind to myself, and my own family kids here - and keeping some calm in my own house

that is the only thing that brings any healing to me dont know why or how

Mashed you ok???????????

cake!! thanks mashed I caught some cake!!

Belle I'm looking forward to confronting her once I'm allowed to do so.

good on you dotty x

heading to sleep now myself, getting that blurry nighttime vision again
night y'all x

Night Belle sleep well x

I have green boobs!!!!!!!! on my jumper

my mates came round to help and I've been painted!

I also have green toes and a green neck

:o

Oh it's all 3 of us my sisters wot let me do it alone even when i'm allowed their fucking angrier than me as they said I was a baby as far as their concerned.

Joins in eating broken chocolate biccies mmmmmm

Mashed they both feel guilty for not protecting me but it's not their fault they where both gone by the time I was 10.

Fuck, fuck inappropriate x2