Support thread for survivors of childhood sexual abuse PART 5

[CailinDana]

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The purpose of these threads is to allow survivors of childhood sexual abuse, their partners, friends, or parents, to talk in a safe place about what they think and feel. Nothing is off limits or taboo, just say what you want to say.

She regularly brings up a conversation she had with my oldest sister about her working 24 hours a day to which sis replied itr was her problem funny how when I was off school for weeks at 12 I cleaned the house every day including cleaning a minging oven. Funny how I remember stuupid things but not much about the abuse stupid cow.

Is it the same bed hun x

It is. Suppose it is good to let go, to feel able to and we can go back into overdraft now to buy a new one after tax rebate. Worried what DH would think if I told him about this crazy shit! I have memories like that. My mum went back to work when I started high school, it was the same time I started being regularly, I suppose assaulted, by that boy, I had a terrible time and there was no-one at home. When I was 14-16 I was punished for being crap by being made to cook dinner and look after the younger siblings every night.

Aw, I wanna join in, shove up I have cake unless you do want me to get lost :o

Agree with Dotty, new bed, burn the cover.

I have eaten cake but can always eat more.

Sweetheart it wasn't your fault if he's as good as you say he'll be more upset if you don't tell him honestly xxxx

Maybe dotty. Won't have to tell him to get a new bed, he wants one anyway.

I'm actually melting again had everything possible last few months asked chemist for something for my ears on Thursday as been a bit fussy, needing popping and keep losing my hearing says its probably infection so dr but can't be bothered never been away from dr in 8 months never used to be there.

HATE the doctor's. If it is infected you may need anti-bs although an ear infection might just get better on its own. Is it sore?

Not as such just irritating keep having to poke at them (bad I know) had same last year escalated to sheer agony ended up on really strong AB's on holiday advised to get hearing checked never did oops. Was a bit sore with the wind yesterday though.

Have you got the big storm clouds Dotty? Think you can go to the pharmacy for ear stuff.

Ooo, Offred, what kind of bed? four poster, sleigh, round?

I got egyptian cotton sheets for my bed, different feel to average stuff, lots of places have deals online.

Not sure, just bigger than this one!

Dotty - yes sounds infected, yes probably needs anti-bs.

Mashed pharmacist wouldn't give me anything that was boots used to be just 2 women pharmacists but since they moved to huge premises you never know who it going to be think I'll have to shake my tail I think I might be a bit whiffy cat won't come near me go get a shower and inspect the mess downstairs.

Dotty! that's something if the cats got a bum face, doc's it is then.

Just has a dissapointment, the storm clouds built up, the air electrified, the lights flickered, then ........... it just rained. All that potential for a storm but no, it just rained.

I like a storm but it frightens the children, no storms here. The wind has somewhat harmed my plants though hopefully they are rescued now.

:( hope they're ok, love plants.

How are you feeling now?

I took my wheelbarrow out this week to paint haven't been able to do it yet just a little wooden one have it anchored down with tent pegs otherwise my fuschios get wrecked.

Hi guys sorry I disappeared earlier, DH came down all gung ho and mustered us for a trip to town. He's not in a good mood at the moment, I think he's stressed, poor thing. So on our way back I told him to head home ahead of us and I took DS to the park to give DH a bit of time to himself. He's upstairs at the mo, probably working rather than relaxing. Him not being on form really puts me on edge, I know I don't react well to it which I'm trying to change because to be fair to him it's very very rare that he's not in a good mood.

How's it going Offred?

hello ladies, feeling low today after last nights outpouring, its hard to have the sort of epiphany that I have had over the last few weeks without some fall out....I feel like shutting out the world today, but keeping it together (just).

I had therapy over 25 years ago, and never wanted to discuss my mother, and my therapist did not push because there was too much to uncover...i was quite resistant to discussing her actually. I guess I needed to be older to be able to process the data - coincidentally my DD is a similar age that I was when the abuse was happening, so I guess that has allowed me to understand role of mother and responsibilities much better...hence the horror at my mother's failings and her attitude ongoing, her scapegoating me.

In classic narc reaction, she is full of contempt for me, my younger brother and my aunt, whom I adore. What do we have in common? We all speak our mind, and dont blindly follow her dictats, we call her on her bad behaviour.

I am feeling very weary. :(

Yeah yeah yeah yeah I have thunder, terrifying yet bloody fantastic and my roads flooding :o :o :o

Dotty, anyone, how do I wash a lace table cloth? there's no paint on it, just dirty, slattern

Is it white Mashed?

Hi hatti. It's no wonder you feel so weary. Do you want to talk some more about what's going on in your mind?

try bio text in a bowl think you can get it for coloureds now as well x

sorry Cailin and Hatti, xpost.

Cailin, so sorry, can you talk about it when he's calmed down/worked it out his system?

Hatti, it's very normal to be triggered when dc reach the age we were abused, big hugs and cake for everyone.

Hatti I cut ties when I was pregnant with DD2 DD1 happened to be coming up for 4 around the time I know for sure it was definately happening triggers also happen around childbirth xx