Support thread for survivors of childhood sexual abuse PART 3

[CailinDana]

The first two parts of this thread:
Part 1
Part 2

The purpose of these threads is to allow survivors of childhood sexual abuse, their partners, friends, or parents, to talk in a safe place about what they think and feel. Nothing is off limits or taboo, just say what you want to say.

Dotty lysine is good for mouth ulcers. You can get it from a health food shop. I think the dose is one tablet a day (it'll say on the packet of course). Mouth ulcers are a definite sign of stress.

dotty its suprising how the little details can really affect us isn't it. I hate ornamental owls and any tat that is owl related as the childminders house was full of them. I hope you get the ulcers and styes sorted, gargling salt water is good for mouth ulcers.I had horrendous mouth ulcers as a child and unexplained nose bleeds.did not make the connection before.

the flu symptom thing makes sense, I have fibromyalgia and i am pretty sure the stress of carrying this around with me has bought it on. I read an interesting study which found that fibro sufferers who were sexually abused have stronger and more disabling symptoms than those who weren't. i personally feel that the abuse I suffered wasn't 'that bad' and interestingly my fibro is moderate so that fits.

I noticed upthread mentioned struggling with crowds and supermarkets a fair bit, and this is something that I have had big trouble with since being a teenager,and have been unable to learn to deal with and learn to cope with.Any tips would be great

Earphones helped me block the noises out but it's only been since I disclosed that I had problems that I knew of as it brought it all to a head. I realise now that my whole life has been affected by both that bastard and my parents treatment of us but to everyone else our family was one of the 'good ones'.

I went to town to do bills etc yesterday and was the first time in months I was relaxed my earphones have now been put away will still use them if I start walking again. The counseling has helped tremendously without it I don't think I would of got this far so fast but I'm also on AD's and have been for 5 months now. xx

On the illness subject, I used to get tonsillitus before a period of flashbacks and also when nobody is listening to me. I saw a homeopath about it not long ago and suddenly started speaking up about lots of things.
I've also been told that sinus problems are caused by uncried tears. I didn't cry for 7 years and had very painful sinuses.

Thankyou Cailin :) , I've been off researching adrenaline, it's most likely the culprit to my insomnia and headaches as well.

Amitola, I still get regular bouts of tonsilitus which baffles gp's as I'm supposedly too old.

This has raised concerns for me as I have an underlying genetic disorder which affects my heart as can prolonged bouts of adrenaline. This condition also affects tissues and healing so I'm not good for tonsil removal. Great.

coffee can you tell me more about your genetic disorder affecting your heart? I have to take beta blockers as if I don't my heart beats way too fast,apparently due to massive and constant floods of adrenaline.

My GP seems happy to just keep me on beta blockers, and has never sent me for tests etc as he says its 'just stress' but I think there must be an underlying cause, why am I producing so much adrenaline? the GP seems to be treating the symptoms and not the cause.

My dad has the same thing, and his mum suffered with 'nerves'. I am convinced that there is a reason other than 'just stress' for this problem,however this thinking adds more stress and compounds the problem!

Hi Boom, it's ehlers danlos syndrome, an abnormal protein gene. I'm on beta blockers too but for the ptsd, I don't think there's any corelation between the two. Hope fully therapy will help you but I think a lot of adrenaline can do quite horrible things on it's own.

Today has been a shit and I really, really, really hate my family, thanks for continually kicking me in the face when I'm down, your all so bloody perfect and pathetic arse here is just such a loser, well fuck right off, hhhiiiisss wankers.

have chilled out a bit, I'm just so angry at myself for caring about people who don't like me.

Coffee you ok? xx

No Dotty, are you ok? :)

My rant was to my family, not you guys

No not really coffee been on edge all day waiting for call just had it he walked out gobsmacked at the amount of charges against him still shaking its becoming real now x

rant away coffee,hope your day improves. I am going back to bed. I have had enough of today. (i feel like that everyday at the moment) luckily the DC's are both asleep, ill, so i have the luxury.

Let my cousin know he's been up she gave in and spoke to him but he's phoned me she's removed all mine and my sisters photographs and he's still going to house cousin ran into him x

Feel so fucking hurt. x

Boom, ditto that idea but I can't argh.

What a fucking bastard Dotty, oh he's shocked because he robbed your life and now he might pay for it, bastard probably thinks he'll get away with it.
What happened with your cousin, my brains not working?

my mum stopped phoning him after he came to visit me last time he was up and kept it from her/ denied it she's not taking sides but he's innocent until he's charged next it will be until conviction. xx

It's great that he's been charged and that the ball is rolling dotty but I can understand your nervousness. It's awful about your mother, just unbelievable. It seems like she's chosen him over you and your sister. How she can justify that I don't know.

What's happened with you Coffee?

Nothing much, just would like a life without this, where I can go to social situations without cringing in shame everytime someone mentions mothers/fathers/sisters etc etc because I'm not good enough for my family, I'm angry I bloody well care. So I'm basically just being a petulant child :o

I'd do anything to make him take it back.

How are you? :)

Tired. It's been a long day, DS and I only got back about an hour ago having been out since 10. I'm looking forward to DH coming home so I can bugger off upstairs with a glass of wine and my book :)

Going for chinese takeaway tonight can't be bothered to cook then need to take DS to A&E he fell a couple of days ago and has been limping. x

Chinese sounds good dotty. I have some nice leftovers from last night's dinner so going to have those - DH can just have a pizza! (he doesn't like what I made last night while he was out). A and E doesn't sound like much fun though! I hope you're not waiting too long. Is there any minor injuries unit near you that you could go to instead? They tend to be quicker than A and E.

No don't have them up here x

I think a bit of childish ranting can be very cathartic

If anyone's interested, I had ME 12 years ago and ended up seeing a Homotoxicologist - it's like Homeopathy, but you ingest sterilised disease tissue as well as herby stuff. It really sorted me out and I still go back every now and then for a good clear out as my immune system is often crap.

Hi all, hope everyone had a good day. I had a busy one, so I've not been around much. Feeling pretty good though, so that's a plus :)

Fabulous Cailin :) Hope good things continue.

Berts, detoxing now and again is good.