I always said I would leave him if he hurt me, and now that day has come

[spareroomsleeper]

Ive been on here before. Several times, seeking help and advice. Each time Ive received it. Each time, Ive lived on in denial.

Last night he grabbed me from my throat, and his fist was inches away from my face. DD (2.5) slept moments away in the next room. He pushed me out of the room and my head banged into the wall. I vomited with shock and because my throat choked from where he had grabbed me. He called me a whore continuously. I cried all night. This morning he woke up and said i want you gone by the time i come back, or I will smash your face.

I am at university here, so I cannot move from this city. Im in the process of finding accomodation from the university. If they cant do anything, I'll go to a refuge. Anywhere to get out of here.

I havnt told my mum. I lost my dad in may this year, and I just cant share it with her just yet.

I just need someone to hold my hand I suppose.
Really heartbroken and need a shoulder.

I'm glad something is a bit easier, & that you treated yourself to the hot choccie, you did take it with you I hope?!

Little things like that can really lift your spirits a bit, even if only for a while.

Any marshmallows to dunk in the hot choc?
I'm beginning to see signs of Spare redeveloping her sense of humour, anyone else detecting this? Go on girl! xxx

Just wanted to add support and say you're in my thoughts.

Also, Spare, darling, I want you to know it is entirely up to you whether or not you take anti-depressants. I don't like them either, and refuse to take them. Don't dismiss them if you think they'll help, but don't worry about being pushed into taking them either. All you need do is say, if they're suggested, thank you very much for the suggestion but you've already considered it and you don't want them currently, if you change you're mind you'll let the GP know.

I've had a lot of dealings with GPs and meds for mental health (though I'm only young), and please don't put off going to the GP for that. You have your own rights to say whether or not you want them. ((())) BIG hugs.

Be proud of yourself for what you've done and the wonderful mother you are. And definately have that hot chocolate!

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random yes I think I see a glimmer

smoke is right about not being pushed into having AD's , but don't let the fear of that stop you going to your GP for other support will you?