The Brave Babes Battle Bus - We're All Going On A Sober Holiday!

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Hello, I'm Mouse

Welcome to the Brave Babe's Bus. This is a bus full of drinkers old and new, sober and not, and those who are somewhere in between.

We are all at different levels of sober so you can bet that one of us has walked in your shoes.

If you want advice and support then you're in the right place.

Come take a seat or just lurk, we're happy to have you along for the ride.

And here is a link to the last thread so you can catch up on the journey so far HERE

Yay rusmum you're back! I was wondering where you were, nice to see you again. Sounds like you've had a lot of non-drinking days too, don't forget to count those.

thanks just annoyed with myself!

Pick yourself up and start AGAIN!

Right you lot, time to say goodnight.

I hope that those who are drinking are taking it slowly and safely. And to those who aren't well done.

I'm so stuffed, we had an M&S dine in for £10 tonight as a treat. I could POP!

Anyway, night Brave Babes xx

Hey Mouse - not drinking .Thanks for your support .
Just feeling really sad for my mum right now .

Feeling a bit better this morning.
Im going to go now .
Wishing all of the babes a safe journey xx

I'm glad you're feeling a bit better today, lostsock. It's dreadfully sad when a family is dying in horrible and undignified ways. It's as though the grief and all that goes with it, go on and on and on. And the only way out is death, and the next step is just another chunk downwards. It makes it harder when there is or has been abuse.

Has your mum been to the gp or to a memory clinic? If you think that her problems are the start of something, it might help to start getting support both for her and for yourself. My parents get help from SS and from Age Concern, and mum has a very good memory nurse. It would be so much more helpful if Dad was a bit more co-operative.

It's been a bit of a boozy weekend. Tomorrow is my stop smoking day.

I don't think that if anyone drank like me, they'd automatically have a life like mine. I do think that if they had endured my life, they may well want to take something to reduce the pain.

Am also glad you're feeking better lostsock. I do hope you decide to stick around. Morning all Babes.
Am out for DP's step-brother's birthday today. Realistically I know I'll drink. I'm not really ready for social occassions and have tried to wriggle out of this one to no avail. I am going to aim for damage limitation and have lot's of sparkling water as well as some wine.
Wish me luck. x

Good luck lucil.

Day 1 again here. No trigger or reason other than alcohol being available.

Hello. Could I join for a month? The rationale of drinking when I am upset with dp is clearly not a good one and I need to get a very clear head for decisions ahead. Last night we had a bottle of wine, most of which I drank. Then he stormed out at midnight because I didn't want to have sex, which horrified me, and still does, hence need for clear head. Then I drank two thirds of a bottle of wine (all that was left) by myself. That might not sound much but I drank it in about 5 minutes. I poured a full wine glass, drank it in one go, then another, etc. I might has well have used a pint glass. I drank it like someone who had just crossed the desert and had finally found water.

I don't feel too physically bad this morning. I feel quite emotionally bad.

I just want to try a zero alcohol policy for a month.

I am also trying not to smoke, which is the thing that is actually going to kill me, and I don't want to die at the moment.

Hello Brave Babes

Jemima - welcome aboard. Can I say, you're really going to struggle to quit both at the same time. Is smoking your primary concern?

What happened after DP stormed out? Do you live apart? Sorry to be asking you this but I'm trying to understand a bit more about you and how you drink etc.....

You sound really fed up sweets xx

Luci

GOOD LUCK!! You know you're going to drink and that's part of the battle. All you have to do is take your time and make sure you include plenty of water. In fact, I'd start with a couple of soft drinks to quench any thurst you may have and then move onto wine.

Have a great time xx

I have a load of nicorettes. Couldn't even contemplate not smoking without them.
He is coming round in an hour.
Very fed up and very pre-occupied with me.
We don't live together but he lives here most of the time.

After dp left I drank the wine in about five minutes immediately fell asleep.
He seems to think that because he is a decade older than me, he is wiser. Bollocks. I hate him atm. Grrrrrrrrr.

Have tons of diet coke in the house.
Now taking dog for long walk. Grrrrrrr.

If anyone finds the corpse of a fifty year old male in the Midlands, please ask for this post to be deleted.

Jemima - I'm West Midlands so could always help you dispose of the body.

So, you drank because DP was being a twat about you not wanting to put out? Not a huge surprise and I have to admit I've done the same in the past.

What are you going to say to him about last night? You know he's the one that is out of order here, right? Totally unexceptable behaviour in my book. No means no in my book, and I don't need to justify why that is.

Diet Coke was my crutch when I first quit drinking myself to death and pickling my internal organs. In fact, I still drink it like it's going out of fashion!

Keep calm, you're not in the wrong here, he is. Just focus on your relationship, not the fact that you drank yourself to sleep x

Thank you. I don't want to get drunk, I just don't want to be conscious. I am angry. If I had sleeping tablets, I would take them, not in a suicidal way, just not think. That's what I thought when I woke up this morning. But I would have to wake up. He is here. God help me, and him. :(

And thank you for listening.

Hi Jemima - sorry your dp is giving you hassle. Do you really have to see him today? If you're still angry, might be best to tell him to stay away for a while (put him on the naughty step)

I agree with Mouse - he was totally in the wrong. No excuses!

Well Babes I am feeling pretty chuffed with myself 'cos I went out for lunch and had 2 glasses of wine (over 3 hours) and have stopped now

Usually I would have carried on all afternoon and evening

Jemima - agree with Faire but he's already there I see. Chances are he'll throw it all back at you. The whole 'don't you fancy me anymore?' and 'don't I satisfy you anymore?' you know how it goes, it's acutally him that needs the reassurance. Child.

I know what you mean about wanting to switch your head off. I get that looking after Nemo. It all just get's too much some days, especially when his reflux is bad or he's refusing sleep and I want to declutter myself. Wake up fresh and start over.

Stay calm xx

just checking in. still here, still drinking.

Hey Ma xx

hey mouse. sorry, not a positive contributor to the bus right now but still her and still cheering everyone else on. maybe you can tow me behind in a trailer?

Aaaaggghhh......just wrote a long message and it got lost!

Morning all :)

Hope you are all well and had a good weekend, whether drinking or not.
I managed a sober one but it was difficult. I really, really, really wanted a drink on saturday but by literally taking it minute by minute got through the evening without one. It's day 5 for me today and physically i feel good but the little voice is getting louder. I know from all your comments I have to be strong and that it will eventually get quieter.

This thread is a huge help for me. I don't post much but I am always lurking and I know that on nights like saturday, when I really wanted to drink and didn't, it's mainly because of you guys. I am also beginning to understand my drinking as well and that gives me a sense of control making it easier to say 'No' :)

Shit - MsGee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm so sorry I missed your post sweets. How are things? I know a very good reason why you are drinking again and I think you do to.

I have been in your shoes and it's horrid. How is your beautiful DD?

Please take care of yourself, you know where I am xx

Morning Babes

MN is playing up big time today, maybe we've been invaded and MNHQ are having to upgrade every few minutes?

Anyway, hello alittlebit. I too had a real struggle last night which is not like me at all. I'd had a bottle of Stella (large one) over the course of the afternoon and evening, mixed with lemonade in a tall glass.

DH asked me if I wanted a glass of wine and I REALLY struggled to say no. I went to bed instead by my Jeff I wanted that wine.

I shouldn't drink on my meds either but it took me 7 hours to drink the shandy so I didn't think that was too bad. And it was all in the aid of Golf!

So well done alittlebit

How and where are we all this morning?

I've made pancakes and hot drinks for us all.

Lostsock

sorry if i upset you at any stage. If you felt that I was shouting at you, I probably was - in the same way as you would shout at someone when you saw them about to shut the car with the keys inside. It wasn't an angry shout, more a "don't fuck it up for yourself!" shout.

Most regulars on here will know that I drank heavily for some time. Not everyone will have picked up on the fact that it then took me THIRTEEN MONTHS to stop drinking completely. and a big part of the reason was that I prjected - either thinking "next time will be different" or "how will i cope if/when XY or Z happens?" In both cases, I didn't wait to find out - I assumed, I drank, I suffered. Anything I can say or do to stop the same happening to someone else is worth it, frankly.

Silent

I do understand about "taking something to reduce the pain." I can only share about me, though, and I know that, in the end, the drink actively INCREASED the pain. I also now know that lots of people had it far worse than me in life and STILL did not drink like I did. If I had my time again - and if it turned out I had a choice - then, if all else failed, I would find something far less damaging and brutal to reduce the pain than alcohol.

Hi Mouse

Well done for making 1 shandy last a whole 7 hours! My DH also had a couple of glasses of wine on saturday but I know that I can't just have 1 or 2 glasses so said no thankyou when he asked if I wanted one. I've also cried off a night out on wed because the group going out all drink quite alot and I'm not ready to put myself in social situations like that yet. That makes me feel quite sad but at least I know I'll have a clear head on thursday :)

If you don't mind I'm going to swipe a pancake and hot drink while the bus is quiet

Fill your boots alittlebit

I was rather amazed at just how long that one bottle did last. I guess I wasn't actively drinking it if that makes sense? It was just there.

Morning MIF