The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Spring Into Summer.

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Hello

Welcome to The Brave Babes Battle Bus.

This is a quest full of Babes, all fighting to remain sober, cut down or are somewhere in between right now.

You ticket to travel is free, it won't expire, and the Bus will always be here, even if there are days when you are not. So come say hi.

I'm Mouse. I have a thing for cheese and vodka, not together, well, not always!

Here is a LINK to the last thread, where you can read all of the previous threads and the journeys so far.

Lovecorrie

I suppose the big question is, which of those things has drink fixed?

Forget for a minute the bad sides of drinking and see it as neutral and harmless. You have a variety of wounds and you are repeatedly applying the same sticking plaster - drink - to each one. Ultimately, that is going to get tedious and you are going to pluck up the courage to go to your GP or A&E and get it fixed once and for all. So why not make it sooner rather than later? FEAR - fuck everything and run or face everything and recover?

Of course, when you add in the fact that the plaster hurts like fuck, costs a fortune and makes you act like a twat ...

I know I know . Bugger

corrie I have Pm'd you :)

Well Babes, I've had a couple of fleeting thoughts of drinking - just thoughts - not cravings and they passed within seconds.

I think what triggered it was the sun shining ( associate sunny days with recent drinking and being free of responsibility, I'd had a very productive day at work ( so I deserve a 'treat' that's going to make me feel guilty, ill and exhausted, right? - self-sabotage more like!) and also I was very hungry.

So came home and had a very tasty Pizza express pizza from Tescos and a green salad - then I'm out to my singing class, leaving purse behind in case the local offy has that strangely powerful magnetic switched on this evening when I come home later

Evening Babes........need to crash on the bus for a while (looks for Silver under the back seat)!

munky always plenty of space.
silver was around recently - she's never far away, I think.

GREAT tactics 4c4 - leaving your purse behind is one of the best. have a good sing.

hey Munky what's going on?

Hiya BB I'm ok really (except for the demon booze!), how are you, you're doing brilliantly

Excellent plan leaving your purse at home! I've been known to go to a meeting with a single pound coin in my pocket so that I've got a quid to put in the pot but no opportunity to buy anything on the way home

Venus does write well, doesn't she?!

Munky I'm fine, but home alone for a few days, so I will be keeping a tight hold of the hanging straps on the bus.
What does OK 'really' mean? Do you want to share?

Hi all, upsy, glad that awful post helped, I keep re-reading it!
I'm on day 15.
I am really, really craving a drink. My head is like a tennis match. I will, I won't, I will, I won't. It's literally like voices in my head, intruding on my thoughts. It's bloody torture today
Sorry to sound so bloody dramatic.

Loads of stuff going on, mega restructure at work following a load of redundancies, I got a promotion but have lost 2 qualified members of the team so we've been dumped on from a great height! Our heads are still reeling!
Feel like I'm floundering, I promised myself that if I got the job I'd pack it in straight away, but here I am, bottle and a half down........

I just can't understand why I've lost the will to do this. How can I go from 10weeks sober to completely the opposite, including a few serious weekends resulting in me pouring a whole bottle of vodka down the sink at 4am, I scared myself that much!

Sorry to hear about all your trials (mouse ma Isindie Thurso ) I wish I could wave a magic wand and make it all go away!

Lovely to meet all the new Babes (4c4 corrie upsy talldrink and any others I've forgotten.

Venus you will always be my voice of reason, I love your posts

MIF good to have you back, hope the family are well

I really thought I cracked it ......... I think that is what pisses me off the most. Just can't seem to find that resolve again [ sa ]

munky I don't know you as I am new. I wish I could say something to help, but of course I can't.

I'm sorry you feel so bad, but you are here and fessing up so you are still trying to be on the right track. Do you want to stop right now? Can you make a plan to see you through the rest of this evening and maybe tomorrow? You don't need to look too far ahead, just see yourself through to the end of today, and then start again tomorrow. I have often given up for a few weeks at a time before (maybe twice year for about the last 5/6 years) and then back to square one again, all is not lost, ODAAT.

Poured the rest of the wine down the sink, am having a cup of tea......day 1 tomorrow.

thornrose the fact that that you are here, and doing well helps, believe me

That was a good move, you tossed it away, you didn't finish the bottle.
I've done the usual, put my pyjamas on and accepted that I won't go to the shop now.
But my mind is playing terrible tricks on me.

thornrose I'm having a tough evening, not helped by the fact that DH is being a complete shit - even more so than usual. You've done so well - 15 days is amazing, you've only got a tiny bit to go before you can go to bed and then that's another day in the bag. I am so familiar with that tennis ball thing. Right now, I'm trying to keep fresh in my mind all the hideous things I've done over the past few years: falling down the stairs in front of DS1's friend who was sleeping over (which I don't remember) and the horror of wondering what on earth he told his mum, my DD asking me "Why did you fall over last night mummy?" etc etc. You definitely won't regret not drinking tonight.
Well done munky, tomorrow is another day.

Well done thornrose. Sleep well, see you tomorrow.

I have lots of memories like that too upsy .......not good! I currently have a load of bruises on my legs, no idea how they got there!

What gives me hope is that I could sneak off and have a drink and not tell any of you, but I don't want to do that.
That's the magic power of this bus!

I am always here babes - just battling my own demons at the moment and hate to post and vanish.

Which is what I always do

And it's not fair

I will be back

And thank the lord JWN - they have finally put spellcheck on here - you are saved as 'THE WORST SPELLER IN THE WORLD'

Still love you though

All of you

Laters xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

I think JWN would beg to differ Silver

Hope all is going well.

Another day over Babes, see you all tomorrow.