wasindie I totally relate to the "getting told off" thing too.
I don't respond well to it either, In fact I live in fear of it. But you're right about my friend, I don't feel afraid of telling her anything, I know I wont be judged or told off in anyway.
I know I wont be on this thread either, but I am aware that other people can see what's written here, whereas a phonecall is 100% private.
So I feel totaly safe talking to her, in more ways than one.
I have had a drink tonight, but I'm not drunk - I even went to bed early to try and fight the temptation - it didn't work.
I am going to set myself a deadline - maybe a cop-out but I feel too much going agaisnt me this week and I want to try and be realistic about this.
My deadline is sunday - kids back at school monday and I'm back to study.
You're right that I have an awful lot to be sober for, a lot of which my friend has pointed oy=ut to me tonight.
If I fail come sunday, then I am going to look for additional help.
Thanks for replying, hope baby settles for you x