The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Carry On Past The Brewery!

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Hello.

I'm Mouse and I've been on the bus for 2 months now and not fallen off it as yet. It's much more comfortable than The Wagon!

Anyway, this is thread number nine!

Everyone is welcome to join at any point of the journey, drinking or not, wanting to stop or just to cut down.

Jump on board, you won't be judged, just supported whatever you decide.

Here is the history of The Brave Babes if you want to have a read.

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Thanks Mouse and Christi!Hope you are are well and everyone else too! Feel quite down and wonder if i'll make it..When I think about it half my life has been defined by drink (always the shy one until I had a drink then the life and soul so found my comfort zone early on ) When that's been stripped away I can't help but think what's really left. Just been thinking tonight that I have been able to keep away from the drink - but only by shutting myself away from my friends and so apart from family, have become very much a loner. I know there's no option and am probably just having a moment. Will go to bed and will take the inspiration with me x

looking i was worrying about that same thung but rage makes a good point i think, i'm sure if you DID know another alcohlic there, they would rspect your anonymity

hi looking i'm sorry you're feeling like this, but i think soon you might feel strong enough to face the world and your friedns and family sober and normal. Maybe think of this time now as a time of healing and repair, stregnthening you for the issues that we all have to face in life. But don't project too much

must sleep speak tomorrow

Thanks night x don't know where this has crept from as have been doing fine. But tomorrow's another day and bed for me too x

Lookingtothefuture, I feel exactly the same. Am wondering what the future holds for me..where am I going to find the confidence from?
Am I destined to be the quiet, sober and boring one from now one?
Am still struggling..really wanted to drink tonight. Took the girls round to see Dp's dad and step-mum tonight. They know me as a drinker. They are too...open the "bar" every night at 5pm.
They kept asking me why I wasn't having a drink. They saw me wasted at my eldest daughters 3rd birthday meal.
I think they wonder if I am in rehab or am pregnant again.
I fgind them so much more stressful to deal with sober.
Oh God...what is the future?
Off to bed.
Goodnight brave babes.
Today I didn't drink. XX

But my spelling is still as shit as ever.

hi looking i'm sorry you're feeling like this, but i think soon you might feel strong enough to face the world and your friedns and family sober and normal. Maybe think of this time now as a time of healing and repair, stregnthening you for the issues that we all have to face in life. But don't project too much

must sleep speak tomorrow

luci you are doing brilliantly so well done. You got through a tricky evening it's so hard when everyone knows you as a drinker

silver will you be ok tomorrow? For your trip?

i know what you mean. I find it ok (relatively speaking) not drinking day to day - but I feel panic stricken at going out with my friends and them discovering I am not the fun time party girl (silly when they probably were just waiting for the lush to go home/pass out!) Silly silly thoughts - we are getting healthy and thats what counts.. And by the way big hugs to you. i was so worried for you about three Sundays ago but you seem to have turned a corner and seem to be much happier/ on track x

hi!!, just back from dinner, had a pleasant evening, 3 N&Ts , i have to admit though, tonight we are home early - everyone was getting really pissed, inc dh, who irritated me (god, how hypocritical is that! , they were all talking a load of old bollocks though , so, here i am, off to bed!

christi - you have made me laugh!! i remember the nights we told you to clean your teeth and get to bed, you used every excuse under the sun to stay up and get pissed!! , i could have rung your bloody neck sometimes! i like the change in you my girl!! btw, you sound so positive!, its like a breath of fresh air!!

christi and mouse are right though, who ever you are, whatever stage you are at, if you want to/feel the need to, then post!, this is a shitty disease and if you have it, you have our support!

night all

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shit

feel like a complete t**t. feel like i've let you all down. sorry

but even in my pit of crap, can I just say, where else would I go to vent at half four in the morning.

Silver, you haven't let anyone down. You can just start again tomorrow. It isn't a race against anyone.

Mouse said something wise tonight about stopping or cutting down when it is right for you. Vent away if it makes you feel better. Try and drink some water, or put some beside your bed?

I've drunk too much coffee. And just smoked half a cigarette.

In fact, some people would say that you are helping them not to drink. By reminding them what it is like.

Oh thank god you are there, just feel like a twat at the moment x

Hi. I was just thinking that if you can go 4 days without drinking, I really think it becomes easier. It seems hard to you now. And it probably will tomorrow. (Drink some water now)

if it's not too nosey - WTF are you doing up at this time? I have woken from alcoholic stupor - now drinking lots of cups of tea in the hope I can sober up before trip to France tomorrow........

I have been to bed and got up again. Hot and too much coffee. Warm night.

I watched 8 out of 10 cats and they were taking the piss out of Uri Geller and he didn't seem to notice. He looks a bit like Cliff Richard nowadays. I don't know whether it is the surgeon or the diet that they share.

Aaargh. I forgot you were going to France. Are you all packed. Can you sleep on the journey?

What time do you go? Have you got lots of aspirin etc to pack/take?

If I need to wake up drastically and quickly I wash my hair and rinse it in cold water at the kitchen sink. Bracing but works for me.

Not going till 4.00pm so plenty of time to sort myselt out. I worked on a programme once with Uri Geller - do you remember Noel's house Party and they used to set up celebrities - I worked on the one when they set Uri Geller up and he was a COMPLETE TWAT - just did not see the funny side of it and refused to let it be broadcast DICKHEAD - although have to say all the spoon bending and stuff was genuine.....