Hi brave babes, sorry I wasn't around on the weekend.
Big hello to all the new babes, nearly, murky, getting, SAF and starting (apologies re missing anyone out). I just wanted to pick up on a couple of things from the weekend ... I came on here not really prepared to say that I am an alcoholic, I just felt a needed to make a change. Now I can say that my relationship with alcohol is very unhealthy and its not one that I used to control. Which is being an alcoholic isn't it? Does it sound so different from where you all are?
I don't normally do tough love but if you are on here and you spend all evening worrying about the next glass and hiding the sneaky glugs from family then yes, you have a problem. Agree with MIFLAW - Fuck Moderation. I put more effort into coming up with stupid plans to 'control' my drinking than I do into not drinking. Honestly. Not having the first drink becomes easier than controlling how, when and if you have the rest of the bottle. Its honestly a relief to not be snarling at DH when he pours himself a drop more than me and looking at the bottle thinking 'how can I get more, how can I get a bigger / extra glass, perhaps if I fill to brim and glug half between kitchen and lounge'. Seriously, its not fun is it? And that is without the drunken behaviour, hangovers, shame etc.
Wasindie / Red - leg slapping indeed. Why do it to yourselves? Red, am glad you got some things sorted though, you sound very positive and not in self-flagellation mode. Wasindie - sounds like you are slapping your own legs enough but seriously, you have three amazing reasons not to drink. So don't. Its hard and sometimes it can be crap but its surely less crap that the anxiety, angst and rest of it??
JWN, venus, pav, mouse, double, maybe, Lucil - big monday hello and hope you are well!
Anyway, all good in ms gee world. I had a lovely weekend - busiest I hav been in months. Normally I am tired and hungover and encourage DD to watch tv whilst I slob out. Saturday we made a den, had an indoor picnic, followed by a disco, then a walk after nap time. Sunday was soft play, lunch out, then onto an annual get together to remember a friend of DH - which is now very much a toddler / small child free for all! Amazing how your energy and ability to actually engage in life starts to return. I feel like I'm no longer just watching my life go by.
Shit, this is another bloody essay. Sorry, will attempt to be more succint in future. Have good days everyone! xxx