The Braves Babes Battle Bus - NOT stopping at the pub!!

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Hello

I'm Mouse. I've been sober for over a month now, thanks to the support of posters on this and previous threads.

No matter where you are up to with your sobriety, you'll find someone here who has been in your shoes!

Come and meet the other Brave Babes........

And here are the other threads for those who want to read them.

JWN's original thread (and the reason we are all here!)

Thread two

Thread three

Thread four

Thread five

Thread six

Nighty night to those darn sarff too JWN

venus - not at all bad!! I'm super tired due to Nemo thinking he is an owl for the last 3 nights.

Plus my ADs have kicked in so I'm a bit jumpy and jittery and shaky.......

Bleurgh!!

I will be here over the weekend, how are you? Other than working!!

Off to bed.

It's Friday but waaaaaaaaaaaaaaay past my bedtime!!

Night Brave Babes!! xx

Did any of you have a "lightbulb" moment where you knew your relationship with alcohol was unhealthy?
Mine should have been aged 20 when I could only manage to do a presentation in college (at 0915 in the morning) after necking back a couple of mini bottled of Vodka.

I have to say it hasn't been a steady decline since those days and there have been long periods (years even) of drinking socially if a little heavily. A lot of days of not drinking at all.
I have however always turned to alcohol to cope with stress/nervousness/heartbreak/anger etc.

There's no doubt in my mind that I have a problem. Most people do not see alcohol as the social and mental comfort blanket I do.

I am 41 with 2 young children. I HAVE to sort myself out before it's too late.

Am really going now. My bed is calling. The disappointment and self-loathing will kick in at it's usual time of 3am I expect.

I deserve it.

You deserve acceptance and kindness and love.

Hey Mouse

Stick with the AD's - when I started on them I had side effects but as your body gets used to them they will kick in and make such a difference. I was basically totally off my face (like being on E) for about two weeks after I started taking them, but then it all calmed down and, now after 10 or so years, I'm still mad!!! - seriously stick with them for now - the side effects will wear off and you will be fine. In fact they will change your life for the better.

They saved me - I would have killed myself - and I'm not being dramatic - one suicide attempt - obviously not sucessful but it could have been.

Mouse just try to ride out the next week or so. It will work if you stick with it x

Morning all!!

Great night last night, I read most of a very trashy Jackie Collins book and no booze!!

I was really tired and went to bed earlyish (11)and slept until half 8...if I'd had wine last night I'd have been up drinking until late and felling awful this morning.

Here's to a good, sober weekend for everyone!!

Luci - you're in a really difficult situation, please don't be too hard on yourself. If I lived with my in-laws I would go totally crackers.

Ha ha... dp was out last night and now he has a headache, while I am fresh and enjoying the bright morning sunshine (he isn't).

We are going out for lunch and we are fighting over who gets to drive and therefore has the best excuse not to drink - changed days

Have a great evening SAF.

saf, have a lovely evening! i have friend who does 'minimal' homestyle, she once asked how i coped with dusting all my stuff - i said i didnt, i just open the windows and let the breeze take it!

venus - you just made me laugh, fighting over who will drive!

mouse - hope you and tiny-mouse had a better night!

lightbulb - i had many 'lightbulb' moments, i chose to ignore all of them until i had made sure i had wreaked enough havoc!

luci - cont be to hard on yourself - you are sturggling with so much right now - sending you a bit of a motherly hug!, i think you could do with one!

i have no idea what 'sturggling' is, some sort of country tradition involoving pigs bladders, proberbly!

Morning.

Well I started with good intentions and ordered a J20 but an hour in I couldnt resist a glass of wine.

Driving home I spotted an Off Licence stopped and bought a bottle of wine which I drank all of when I got home.

Yesterday was a rotten day to do with my exh and date was odd so I felt justified in this course of action.

Wake up this morning with a headache after what just a week ago I would have classed a very sober night. This reminds me that actually that much alcohol is not normal and my body has been suffering all these years but not telling me because of my tolerance.

I am not beating myself up at all but I have to think about the fact that when I got home I drank the whole bottle and it didnt occur to me not to. Had I avoided that glass of wine in the restaurant it may not have happened.

So I have learnt how right you all are when you say avoid the first drink which I hadnt understood before.

Anyway although I am feeling a bit woeful today and its a saturday... I will not be drinking today.

Good Morning Bus Babes

How is everyone today? I had vodka and wine last night and I feel like absolute s**te today. BUT it has reminded me why I stopped in the first place. IT'S JUST NOT WORTH IT. So back to sobriety and feeling good for me - I poured half a bottle of vodka down the sink at 3.00am this morning. That was a good feeling. Being in control is something we are all looking for I think, and pouring the vodka away felt fantastic because WE DON'T NEED IT. We have just conditioned ourselves to think that we do. So I hope everyone is OK and looking forward to another sober weekend. All we can do is keep on trying. Life is so much better without the poison.

SAF yes I too would love to not drink a bottle or two on a flat week night sitting by myself watching tv !! That is what I have been doing for years though and why I am slowly realising that I may have to give up completely for some time rather than the elaborate time table of drinking on this or that occasion

I am sure you arent having any negative effect on the thread !

Morning Babes.

SAF - I once put somewhere on one of these threads about it not mattering where you are up to in your journey to sobriety. Whether you are still drinking or not, you are welcome to post. You have as much right as any of us to post here and want support!

Please stay SAF. You are helping us as much as we are helping you.

getting - lesson learnt. xx

Silver - same to you, lesson learnt. Thing is until YOU do it, unitl YOU experience that huge fall off the bus, you are likely to think 'yeah, right! I'll be fine with a drink or four'

Now we know, that's not the case.

Luci - you are dealing with so very much. Whether you are drinking or not, stay and post. Again, we are here for you and your posts help us all. Don't feel you can't post because you are drinking. And yet, if you feel you want to stop, then please know that you can ALWAYS come back.

I had a fab sleep and a lie in thanks to DH!! And I've been told I can stay in bed tomorrow too!! I need to catch up!!

Thanks for all the posts on the ADs. I do feel like I've had an E. I get that spaced, shaky feeling. Like I'm tripping. I get that dropping sensation in my tummy too. Gah!

I will be doing lots here today!! But one thing I won't be, will be drinking!!!

Hope you are all ok lovely Babes.

Hi Mouse

Promise you the side effects of the AD's will stop - how long have you been taking them? I'm on venlafaxine (effexor) and I remember when I first took them being totally off my face - it lasted about 2 weeks but did settle down and saved my life. I am about to go from being a reddish brown to blonde - mainly because the chemist didn't have the colour I wanted - but what the hell - lets live dangerously - other half might get a shock when he gets home and it could mean an emergency trip to the hairdressers..............will keep you posted while I listen to my DD practising her violin - why oh why couldn't she have wanted to learn any other instrument - bless her!!

Silver - My DD did violin for 2 years. It nearly made me egg box her entire room!!! So I feel your pain.

Erm, I got them on Tuesday and started on Wednesday. I am spaced but I also take Tramadol for pain so I have had to adjust the dose as I was falling asleep.

I can only take the one Tramadol in the day but two at night.

And Nemo has just been sick Thought we were going to have a sick free day but no.

How are you feeling Silver?

Mouse - I'm OK just angry at myself for giving in. It's always when other half away for the night and 'I know I can get away with it'...same old same old........Why is Nemo sick? Sorry but I'm so recent to this thread I might have missed something said earlier............

off to dye hair - be back in 15 minutes x

Silver - look at my profile, it explains all that he has but he has severe reflux.

How is the hair coming along? I hope it doesn't go orange!! I once tried to go blonde. I looked the the top of a duracel battery by the time I'd finished!

ffs - don't say that - it's on my head now - shit shit shit

how do i look at your profile mouse?