Morning,
you ladies are all on fire this morning!
wrinkly glad you are feeling more positive today but def go to the GP. You sounded so down last night, please keep posting, everyone is here to support you! I think a few pages back there is an 'interesting' discussion on to do lists and stationery!
starting agree with other posters that its great that you are helping your friend but remember to take care of you too!
venus enjoy your busy day, hope its productive!
Red day 5, hurrah! hope you have a good day!
SAF I did read your post and it was very intersting. I think that there seems to be an awful lot of us on here who have / had depression and I think there is such an overlap between that and the drinking. I know what you mean about the performance self, its sometimes hard to know where to find the real you. keep posting, it sounds like you are working through a lot and a clear head helps!
Mouse I shall discard my shuffle hugs and give you a , lovely lady, starting is right, you do have such a capacity for kindness and helping others even when you feel shitty. Your post from last night made me so sad that you are feeling so crappy and see yourself so negatively. FWIW, I see you as a brave, wonderful, inspiring, caring woman. And quite frankly from your photo you are gorgeous!! I so wish you could get a glimpse of how we all see you, you have so many fans on here. Anyway, you sound positive this morning, and impressively organised. Have you heard from DD yet? Can you call her or the school?
All ok here. LittleMsGee up before 5 yelling POOPOO - alas, another hilarious joke. I brought her into bed with us and within 5 minutes she was trotting off downstairs (in the dark). By 5.15 am we were drawing pictures of waybuloos. Still, she was very lovely, if a bit tired. Builder failed to turn up at house yesterday, but later apologised as he had an emergency. We used him for a lot of work on our current house (done this year after promising DH that I would stop looking to move...) and he is normally reliable and trustworthy. Albeit bloody expensive.
Looks like difficult teen years and depression are common themes on here. Although I guess that is probably a large % of the population generally? My depression started as a (young) teenager and carried on throughout my twenties. Like Mouse, I was always looking for the high, for something to make me feel ok. My self worth was tied up with men or my career but never really based on me. I was never ever content - and didn't want to be really, I liked the rollercoaster ride but since I had lovely daughter, I want boring contentment. I want to just be happy to be me. I know it doesn't work this way for everyone but becoming a mother finally made something click in me, to be honest I was relieved that I had to stop thinking about me and learnt to put someone else first. I had to learn to rely on people (especially DH) and that doing your best and living for today can be just fine.
Anyway, must stop this witter! Have lovely days brave babes. Today, we will not be drinking.