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And, does the drink really do that? Really?
I did that. I drank to escape. To forget how seriously ill my DS was, how stressed I was, how unfair life was, how cheated I felt aboubt the hand life had dealt me.
I wanted to numb the pain, numb my head so I didn't lie there 'thinking' in the wee small hours.
I drank because I could. 'I'm an adult so if I want to drink, I will!!'
Thing is, and you know this, in the long run, drinking didn't do any of those things. No numbing no relaxing, no sleeping - just passing out.
The mood swings, the hangovers, the DTs, the fretful sleep, the sickness and shaking, the poor complextion, the weight fluctuation......
All of those things impacted on how I really felt.
If you were to sit down and write out what upsets you, what depresses you, what you want to forget and not think about and approached those things one at a time, I think that you could handle them without a drink.
You need a routine. You need time just for you and you need to be selfish.
A bath can save your life! Half an hour of 'you' time. Locked in the bathroom. A hot tub of bubbles, clean pjs and a good book, by a certain time each night and before you know it, that's two hours less drinking time!
Yes, your in-laws may whinge about the hot water, so shower instead.
Just wash the day away.
Make that list. Cross things off and plan your day/evenings away from booze as opposed to around it.
Just try it. Tomorrow.
What do you have to lose by trying?