All Aboard The Brave Babes Battle Bus!

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Hello, welcome to thread five!!

I'm Mouse and I'm 10 whole days sober which is bloody amazing given that I would normally consume nearly 90 units per week! And that's without 'special occasions'!!

So, if I can do it, you can do it! The support here is awesome, no matter where you are in your quest to quit. No judging, no cliquey groups.

We are just real, honest people. All helping each other to give up the booze. Come meet the other Brave Babes........................

And for those who would like to read the adventures so far, here are the links from the first four threads!

JWN's original thread (the reason we are all here)

Thread two

Thread three

Thread four

Thanks Red - I'm glad I'm not the only one that experiences the paranoia, it's a disgusting feeling and the price I pay for being such a clown.

It's the things I 'make up' in my head that are the worst, imagining horrible scenarios that didn't happen but convincing myself that they did. I think I do it to a) beat myself up further and b) blot out the horrible things I actually did do and say.

Thanks again Red x

Not that I'm 'glad' you've had paranoia, iyswim!

needsto - when my paranoia gets especially bad I am almost agraphobic and get panicky leaving the safety of home. I think that everyone is looking at me, judging me, laughing at me. Of course it's my alky ego running mad - people have got far better things to think about than me and my drinking/ behaviour!

You know that you will feel better tomorrow - and even better the day after that x

Needsto Sounds like a rough weekend :( That reliving things real and imagined the next day is horrible and familiar. Be kind to yourself.

needsto - no worries, I know exactly what you mean. It's a relief to know that others have felt the same!

*agoraphobic! (You knew what I meant )

needsto - i have experienced that awful paranoia sooo often, it really is shit isnt it? - give yourself another day or two and you will be feeling a lot better

(i once totally disgraced myself at a friends wedding, woke up in the morning and thought, 'ooh what the fuck have i done now', turned out i told her she had married the wrong man, her dress was the wrong colour and the meal was awful! i cant put a 'blush' sign here, it seems to frivolous in a way, what a bloody cowish thing to do!)

hello moomin, this is a rare treat!

ps! she is divorced now!!

So you were right! Just not very appropriate timing!

(At least I won't now spend the first 20 mins of my 'working' day catching up as I have managed to get on here!)

I am a bit agoraphobic too, and it is definitely worse when I have been drinking. I get really jumpy too, so if a dog barks or someone makes a sudden noise, I jump out of my skin.

All much calmer without a drink.

JWN - presumably the bride wasn't wearing white?

arrhh the dress, that may have been what triggered my outburst! , it was a medievial themed wedding, IN A GOLF CLUB! snurk!!!

(i know, i know, i am a cow!! )

OMG You were probably not the most ideal wedding guest then!

Sounds... erm... interesting! Still, erm, each to their own or something!

You may be a cow JWN, but you are a cow with a wonderful wicked sense of humour.

well, now i have confessed my inner bitch, i need to go to bed!

night night lovley sober babes!!

see you in the morning and dont forget, tomorrow

WE WILL NOT BE DRINKING!!

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Night night JWN. Sleep well x

night moomin!

Goodnight everyone.

and it's goodnight from me x

And I think I will head off too - been lovely to join in with the thread in the evening!

Sweet dreams to all x

Good morning. How is everyone, hope you slept well adn have woken to a new morning and another sober day.

I am off on holiday tomorrow and before I go I just wanted to say how important these threads have been in helping me to acknowledge the extent of my drinking, the stupidity of my actions, and to help keep me strong in the face of some ferocious wobbles. It has been a great priveledge to be on this journey, one day at a time with all of you. And I do mean all of you - whatever your journey has been like so far.

I'll be back next week to join you all on which ever thread you have got to. Take great care of yourselves, you are doing a wonderful thing.

Hello everyone!

lovely post Venus. When are you off? Have a great time!

I have read everyone's messages, but not up to replying much, sorry. Been laughing/crying/identifying with you all. Really been feeling quite crap - not drinking, thankfully, just pregnant and exhausted!

I agree with Venus, this thread is wonderful and has really opened my eyes to a lot of things. Day 12 for me today and I will not be drinking.

Morning venus. all fine here. Been staying at my mother's since Sunday, she is away. back to Edinburgh tonight going to some comedy at the fringe

ONe reason I think for my relapse is that I am still unable to do any exercise and it really helps keep me on the straight and narrow. But my knees are still messed up.

Hope you have a wonderful holiday! Take care. And thank you so much for your help. Did you receive my email by the way?

Christi, nice to see you, and I have replied to your email (and sent you my usual email address ). I saw Smoke and Mirrors at the weekend, it was very good, very theatrical and dramatic.