Abortion scan please please help desperate

[tryingtobestronger]

I went for a scan yesterday, assuming Id be having my abortion on Wednesday and Thursday of this week.

My lmp dates suggest im just over 7 weeks.

My scan showed I was around 5. They said I need to go back in two weeks time to redo the scan as they need to see a embryo and all they saw was a pregnancy sac (normal for 5 weeks).
I am so upset. Will I be over 9 weeks when I go back? Nurse said no- I will be around 7 weeks.
What date did your scan go by?
I'm really struggling, have no one to talk to and I'm so confused . Please someone help im begging you.

This is an emergency.

You don't know that until you phone then. Hobestly-those appointments are for people in your sort of situation. All the GP surgeries I've worked in have allowed people with acute depression or anxiety to take an emergency appointment.

I don't think there's really a 'normal' way to feel but you're coming across as incredibly anxious and paranoid and it can't be nice for you.
Worrying excessively about the dates - I know this probably won't make a difference but whether you are 7 or 9 weeks will really not make any difference. Constant sobbing and fear - I think it's normal to be nervous but you have a heightened fear of what will happen. You've had a baby! A termination is a walk in the park in comparison. It's really not going to be anywhere near as bad as you're imagining.

When I see the doctor what shall I say

trying I know you're in such a dark place right now it seems like there's no through road, but there is. You have your little boy, and like you said up thread, you're a good mum. I bet you're a fantastic mum and he adores you!

The situation with your husband sounds so hard right now, but that's form filling and bureaucracy for you unfortunately. Keep pushing, keep working towards it and it will all come together in the end for you both. Think of the long term goals and keep your eyes on them, use them as your target.

A week seems like a lifetime away right now I'm sure but focus on smaller chunks of time. Do things to take up the space in your mind; don't clock watch or Google. Chat to us, read some of the threads in Mumsnet Classics, anything you usually enjoy doing.

They won't stop you from having an abortion, try not to worry about that. It's just getting to that point where they can confirm that one is needed in terms of there being a viable pregnancy, so that you're not going through medical procedures unnecessarily. It's not in their interests to prevent you from having an abortion.

Huge hugs lovely

Just be honest about how you're feeling and that you feel like you're struggling to cope at the moment.

And yes, I agree with the others - get an emergency GP appointment. Tell them exactly what you've told us; how you're feeling right now. Write it down if you think you might struggle to say it.

Two days ago I went shopping with my son on the train, bought him some toys and clothes and took him for food. I was like a different person. Why am I back like this again? I think it was the discharge.
It's the stuff I've read . I know I was stupid for reading it and I haVnt since. But it's scared the living day lights out of me. I also read the miscarriage thread on here about being put to sleep because some is left inside.

Since I've found out Herea what I thought I've had-
Thought I was four months pregnant
Etopic pregnancy
Miscarriage
Chlamydia(?!?! Me and my husband havnt slept with anyone else ever. It was from googling symptoms , it was actually a uti)
Now I think I'm gonna miscarry the sac(no baby) and some will remain and I'll have to have the surgery.

Why am I thinking the worst. I know why it's because I went lasts day thinking by dates I would have the abortion on thurs. And then it all went tits up

Thank u so much for talking to me guys. You honestly don't know how much I appreciate it.
Me and my husband are in constant contact but I can't talk to him about this as I know he's upset and I've tried talking about it to h but it depresses the two of us and to be honest drains me even more

It hasn't gone tits up. You will get the abortion, it's just being necessarily delayed for a short while.
Can you maybe work through rationally why you're so terrified about the prospect of surgery? You managed to have a caesarean, and it's going to be nowhere near that.

You right he does adore me he's the sweetest little boy honestly. He's my best friend. So caring and loving and funny. And so so handsome. He just came up to hug me with a smile and it was so cute but it hurts boobs cos they are sore lol that makes me want to laugh and cry. I remember how terrified I was to have him but I did I

It's natural to think the worst sweetheart, brains have a habit of jumping to the worst case scenario!

Sounds like you had a lovely day with your little boy the other day, I bet he loved the train! I think all kids go through a stage of being train mad at some point or another!

It's not gone tits up, it's just a delay. It's still going to happen and everything is going to be fine. Have you got anything planned with the little one this week? It might help to distract you for a little while.

Just really scares to be put to sleep. The nurse has told me that they will not do that anyway. And it's literally just tablets toll 16 weeks and I will only be 7 ish by scan. But in my stupid stupid head the worst will happen

This is hard enough emotionally as it is. I just want it to be going in, have the tablets, have a bad period , take some painkillers , then pass the pregnancy and go home. Like others say happened for them

I have actually got things planned. Quite exciting things that I planned a while ago. And tomorrow we will just go to the park. I'm back in work this week but only for a few hours

You will get your tablets and the abortion, just not right when you want it. I think for now you need to focus on getting serious help for your anxiety before it spirals out of control. I mean you've admitted to picking holes in your skin - that's not good. Your son needs you on top form with everything that's going on with his dad so just try focus on getting strong for now and soon enough it will all have come right.

I know I didn't mean to do it on purpose it was just while I was thinking. I didn't want to hurt myself or anything

Trying....

Please listen to me. You need to see a doctor tomorrow. You are imaging the worst - this is called catastrophising and is a classic sign of acute anxiety. Ring your GP and tell them it is an emergency as you have been thinking you would be better off dead and deserve what is happening as punishment. Acute mental distress IS an emergency. If they will not see you PLEASE go to a walk in centre.

op what do you think will happen, when you say you think the worst will happen?

Try and relax I know it's hard and I'm the last person who should be saying it but you're going to get yourself too worked up. You do need to see a GP as previous posters have said, I understand I'm the way I am because of anxiety I've been diagnosed and I'm on medication I think your GP will say you need medication too even if it's the lowest dosage, just to take the edge off.

Will they take my son away? I've never had this before will it go away

Also I don't have any childcare tomorrow.

Who and why would take your son away?

You need some counselling for your anxiety, they don't take children away for that.

Advice arnt you scared? Arnt you feeling the same as me. Is the way I'm feeling silly? I hope it is silly

They will NOT take your child away! But you do need some professional help I think.

So take your son with you, or ask for a phone appointment and talk in private. Don't use that as an excuse. Have you got any friends that can help?