Abortion scan please please help desperate

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I went for a scan yesterday, assuming Id be having my abortion on Wednesday and Thursday of this week.

My lmp dates suggest im just over 7 weeks.

My scan showed I was around 5. They said I need to go back in two weeks time to redo the scan as they need to see a embryo and all they saw was a pregnancy sac (normal for 5 weeks).
I am so upset. Will I be over 9 weeks when I go back? Nurse said no- I will be around 7 weeks.
What date did your scan go by?
I'm really struggling, have no one to talk to and I'm so confused . Please someone help im begging you.

Like some kind of cruel sign, my husband has been granted a visa very close to where I live. Don't know whether to laugh or cry. Literally the day after

That's good OP! He might not have be able to be with you through this but I think it's helped you realise how strong you can be.

This news is separate from the abortion, don't let it cloud how you feel.
I am assuming very close means a closer country? That's great news, and I am very pleased for you.
However, you chose to end your pregnancy because of many factors. And end a pregnancy is all you did - you did not close the door to having more children one day in better circumstances.
I hope this news can be enjoyed once things are settled for you a bit more. Please try not to regret your decision, I honestly feel you did the right thing for you and your boy, no matter what the future holds.

I can't help but think would I have gone through with it if I knew he'd be so close , like a few weeks earlier. But I can't think like that can I. He's still not here here. And he's still not even left for the other country so anything can happen. It's just this is the closest we have ever got. It's crazy. As if it was some kind of sacrifice but obviously it's not.

He didn't know the abortion was yesterday. I didn't want to burden him, as there was nothing he could do. He told me about the visa today. Straight afterwards he told me about the visa. Couldn't make it up. I feel like these last few weeks have been a dream.

I guess things will fall into place at the right time. I can't start regretting it, because it was the right thing to do. And even though I've had lots of tears about it, I feel a lot better and calmer and in control .

Don't think like that you will beat yourself up and there's always what ifs isn't there?

Look forward to your future together and with your son instead and be proud of yourself that you really have been such a strong person the last few weeks! You already seem like a different person to when you first started this thread well done

That's true. And actually if I'm honest. With him in a closer country.... I still wouldn't want to be pregnant. As it stands Id still have to go to scans alone, give birth alone, celebrate alone. And that was what I didn't want. That hasn't changed has it. Just so bizarre we've waited years for this. And it comes a day after.... life is strange.

Not sure I can go through with today it's the first pill giving Me anxiety Incase I have a bad reaction :(

If it helps I felt exactly the same after the first pill. Like you were telling me- you CAN do it. Women do this everyday and it's so so so safe. It's almost over now.

Thank you! I'll try and pop back later if I haven't worn myself out too much from anxiety

Advice - do you have anyone to go with you? Thinking of you. x

Thank you, my sister has come but I've been told she isn't allowed in :(

Out but don't think I've done the internal tablets correctly (not sure how you could do it wrong) so worried I've messed up the nurse wouldn't check for me hopefully I haven't messed up

I'm quite concerned that I'm not feeling anything yet sad I literally have no other chance to get this sorted after today

Took about two and a half hours for for to get any real noticeable pain. Started bleeding after about 3 hours. Not much though.it was in the fourth - fifth hour that the actual process was completed.

Are you getting any twinges? I don't think you can put them in wrong really.
Are you not able to go back or call and ask?
Did they scan you? Are you just maybe super early the whole process will be very mild?

No nothing at all my sister thinks it might be because what I experience in labour masks this haha.

I know there's probably no way of doing it wrong but my mind is bullying me. No they're really unhelpful they said you'll just have to return and do it again if it fails :(

Yeah I'm 5 weeks so that could be why? I thought I'd stop stressing once I got the tablets but obviously not.

Maybe it is because your so early.

I kept asking loads of questions like why arnt i bleeding yet, is this amount of blood normal, it doesn't seem much and things like that. All they could say was it's different for everyone so there's no right or wrong process. Can take an hour. Can take 8.
They gave me another oral pill three hours later as not much had happened but I only got that as I was in in hospital. I think that was just to get it over with quicker so they don't have to keep people in overnight, in case it takes long.

Try and rest and hopefully things will move along shortly. It's still only a couple of hour in yet. Try not to worry. The fact that they are being so laid back about it must mean they arnt worried so that's a good thing.

Okay literally just lost a SMidge of blood so hopefully this means I've done it right and it should start properly soon

Sounds like it's starting then. how are you feeling emotionally

Still scared Incase it doesn't work fully but I know once it's over I'll feel so relieved and silly I was worked up.

I really can't have more children I struggle with my son and he's a really good baby but I'm not maternal don't get me wrong but I don't feel like his mum.. If that makes sense :( it kills me to say that but I wouldn't be able to love two children I know I'm a monster but it's better this way

Plenty of people just want and have one child . And just because your a woman you don't have to maternal.

Hope your doing ok

Thank you seems to be progressing now and pains have kicked in so I'm covered in heat pads and going to binge watch crap tv

X factor tonight ... Now that's binge watchable crap tv

Completely forgot about Xfactor thanks for reminding me.

I haven't bled much at all :/ but I have bled so surely it's worked?

How are you feeling?

I was confused by that to. It was all 'you will bleed a hell of a lot' even by the first appointment nurses. It makes you wonder if it's working properly!

I was 8+4, so the cut off in most places. I had a lot of clots twice I went to the toilet which felt strange. But not much blood at all. I wore the same pad all though the procedure. The tiniest bit of blood on it. I only changed it just to feel fresh before I came home.
Yesterday I bled a little bit heavier after I went for a walk. Again hardly any on pad, just there when I went for a wee!
Today is the same as yesterday!

With you being 5 weeks from the scan, chances are you may not have much. Do you have any more pains?

I'm having a few mild mild period cramps today. Nothing bad. Think it's my womb contracting back to normal size.