Abortion scan please please help desperate

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I went for a scan yesterday, assuming Id be having my abortion on Wednesday and Thursday of this week.

My lmp dates suggest im just over 7 weeks.

My scan showed I was around 5. They said I need to go back in two weeks time to redo the scan as they need to see a embryo and all they saw was a pregnancy sac (normal for 5 weeks).
I am so upset. Will I be over 9 weeks when I go back? Nurse said no- I will be around 7 weeks.
What date did your scan go by?
I'm really struggling, have no one to talk to and I'm so confused . Please someone help im begging you.

Quite weepy today

Quite weepy today

I'm so sorry you are going through this op

Please don't beat yourself up about other peoples circumstances. Someone else's miscarriage has nothing to do with your situation, or the decision you have made. Both are difficult for different reasons. I have had miscarriages of much wanted babies and I don't resent you at all. I'm sorry you're in this position. Lots of unmumsnetty hugs x

Thank you for replying. I've got another week of this. I think one more weeny I go but what if something goes wrong next week. I need a hug so bad I'm usually so strong. I can't stop the tears coming out. All I want to do is sleep but the second I wake I get this thump of reality of what the reality is

I'm picking at my skin without realising

Not on purpose but I'm thinking thinking thinking and I've got red marks on my arms from where I'm picking at my skin withy nails

I'm so sorry you're having to go through this alone - it must be hard enough as it is. The limbo you've been left in waiting must be awful.

What's your GP like? I think some professional support would be really helpful to you, even if it's just someone to talk to.

I rarely have much to do with gp. But tends to be a quick in and out and referral to where ever else you need to go. Which isn't going to be of any help to me. I need help now I'm crying in my room while my son is downstrairs. I'm so scared

I keep coming back here. It's the only place where I can talk. I'm terrified

Ring and ask for a double emergency appointment, so you have time to talk. If you don't get on with the GP you usually see, ask to see a different one. It is an urgent situation, don't let them push you off. You shouldn't have to deal with this on your own.

I know it seems hopeless now, but you will get through this.

I don't understand how they can help me.

Sometimes just taking to a sympathetic ear can help, but they can also get you urgent counselling. You need someone to offload this all to in person, to help you cope.

The things I need are- to end this pregnancy. And to have my husband here. And no one can help with either of these things. How can criminals who bomb and rape come here but my husband can't. I wouldn't be in this situation if he could just come here .

I work hard. I'm not a mean person. I'm a good mum. I don't ask for much. Why am I feeling like this I'm so so stupid I wish I had a friend

You can't change those things in the here or now though I'm afraid - so you need to find a way to cope with how things are at the time being so you're strong enough to fight the big stuff

You've done so well waiting up to now. My heart goes out to you, really.

Just focus that it will all be over soon. Don't feel guilty - you are doing what is right for you and your son. Keep talking on here if it helps and please ask fit counselling after the abortion (you should be offered it) as I think you would benefit from it greatly.

In my heart, I know if things were fair. We'd all be together with a baby on the way

I want to just run away from it all

I absolutely think you need to speak to your GP about managing your anxiety as I think in your distress you are really losing perspective on things.

But I couldn't leave my son I love him more than anything

I think your right but they will take a week to see me anyway
What perspective should I have so you think. I don't know how I should be feeling and what's normal to feel

dropyoursword is absolutely right-you need to see your GP tomorrow about your anxiety. They can refer you to a counsellor to help you deal with these feelings.

I think your right but they will take a week to see me

Not necessarily-all gp's have emergency appointments they release on the day. Phone as soon as they open and explain to the receptionist it is urgent. At the very least request a phone consultation.

Ring first thing in the morning and ask for an emergency appointment, don't ask for a routine one.

They won't see me tomorrow. They ask if it's a medical emergency and then they say they will see me in a week or even later