Can I join? Have been tempted to post on these threads for a while, but didn't want to tempt fate.
I am currently 16weeks 4 days.
I had ds1 10 years ago, a miscarriage at 13 and a half weeks 5 years ago after trying to conceive for 2 years. I then found out I wasn't ovulating and although I have never had any cysts ended up with the diagnosis of PCOS. After finding fertility treatment too traumatic ds2 was eventually conceived naturally 3 years ago.
I had pretty much given up hope of having anymore, although we started trying as soon as ds2 was born (well, after a reasonable pause ).
Then at the worst possible moment (just started PGCE) I got a BFP .
Due to hundreds of additional pressures I have deferred the placement for now.
Despite the fact that I have already had 2 normal scans showing a perfectly healthy baby - one at 8 weeks one at 14 weeks - I am convinced that everything is going to go wrong.
I'm finding it very hard to bond (I know it's early days) - harder than with ds2 - and feel I am distancing myself from the whole thing.
I've also got SPD again, already, which is a PITA.
I am very happy, and very confused, and expecting the worst.
Is this the place for me?