Hey everyone,
Longtime lurker, first time poster. Trying for first since November. Chemical pregnancy first cycle. Got BFP for first baby on Thursday, 12DPO. Very strong line on a FRER. Now 4+1 and a dye-stealer on FRER this morning. So far so good, right?
I seem to just be in a spiral of freaking myself out about everything. Went from initially pleased about the strong result (much stronger at 12DPO than my CP cycle result was at 18 DPO) to worried about a molar pregnancy, have gone down a rabbit hole about chromosomal issues and stillbirth risk as I am 36, and most recently freaking out about getting a dental x-ray at 2DPO and whether radiation might have reached the egg. And of course general fears of miscarriage or other things going wrong. I'm finding new things to worry about multiple times a day.
I'm also really stressed about choosing a hospital. I have some trauma from my local hospital because when I had the CP I went in and I didn't come up pregnant on their test (despite coming up pregnant earlier that day and the next day on a HPT) - the staff clearly thought I'd decided I was pregnant then freaked out when my period came on and lied about having positive tests to save face. So I don't feel like I'd feel in good hands there. But the hospital I really want is 53mins by taxi away which is a long way through London traffic.
The experience of testing negative at the hospital when I was in the process of an early miscarriage and being treated like a stupid girl who didn't know the difference between a period and a miscarriage also makes me really not want to self-refer to a pregnancy unit. I want to wait and speak to my GP but can't currently get in to see her until 9 May (when I would be approx 6w along).
Anyway, I know that once you get pregnant you just worry about the child from then until forever, but does anyone have any tips for managing the anxiety spirals around the uncertainty at this stage??