Legend I was exactly the same. But found that getting past the date of my MC was a big milestone and made me feel lots better and then the 12 week scan and good screening results have made me feel much more positive. I hesitate to say it, but I feel like some of the innocence is back now, almost like inside (very quietly so no one else, least of all the baby hears!) I'm thinking "great, we've made it this far so that means that everything will now be fine, because why wouldn't it be?"...It's like the detachment has switched from being detached from the baby, to being detached from the idea of something going wrong. Which I'm going to roll with!
Obviously I know that something could go wrong at any stage, and we are by no means out of the woods until we have a healthy baby in our arms, but for now, I'm feeling positive.
My doppler arrived yesterday and it took several tries and lots of youtube videos, but I found baby which was lovely. Very quiet and the doppler couldn't pick up the heartbeat but it was definitely baby and not me.
Corin hope the midwife gives you some reassurance today, I expect as PP has said a trip to the EPU could be on the cards? They will hopefully be able to give you more information about what will happen next.
Welcome July and congratulations 