Firstly, I apologise if this upsets anyone, as my intention is the complete opposite - to give hope to those who are feeling the same way I was not very long ago.
Some of you may remember me from last July, when I was here trying to deal with my feelings after suffering an 11 week missed miscarriage with our first attempt at pregnancy.
Well, I'm pleased to announce that our rainbow, Daniel, arrived on the 20th of last month (a year and 5 days after our loss, in the same hospital), happy & healthy after a really (physically) easy pregnancy & birth, despite CRUSHING anxiety from the moment I peed on that stick to the second he took his first breath - miscarriage, cord accidents, stillbirth, they were all I thought about, I drove myself half crazy counting the kicks!
We still don't know what happened with our first, but if you're trying again please take heart in knowing that it CAN work out in the end & know that I'm sending positive thoughts to all of you who are trying again.