I can't believe it...

[wickedwitchofwaterloo]

... After a horrible round of IVF that nearly killed me, an early miscarriage several months later and then 5 years of absolutely nothing.

This has just happened today. I am utter shock

MumToBe have you read the fucking thread?

wickedwitch so sorry :(

So sorry things seem to be going from bad to worse. How unfair

This must be so hard for you and your partner but to echo other posters you WILL get through it. When I had a MMC after 3 years of ttc, fertility treatment and surgery I was convinced that was my last chance. I had to have two ERPCS which left me with scar tissue in my womb which just felt like the door was being slammed shut in my face. I was honestly without hope. A successful pregnancy felt a milion miles away. I hated my body for being so rubbish. Then out of the blue I got a BFP the day before I was due to have more surgery to try and remove the scar tissue. I'm now nearly 49 and 29 weeks and can still hardly believe it. You are not broken x

*40 not 49!

What a roller coaster for you :(

Roseybee10 I'm sorry for your loses, but so happy to hear about your beautiful girls You are so right. All these stories are great to hear But also, it's truly humbling that so many of you would take the time to comment and say such lovely things to me, and that how I feel has been so validated and understood. I can't tell you how much every comment has meant to me, at what is one of the most confusing times of my life.

worriedmum Don't wish your life away, eh? What you went thru must have been horrible, I'm sorry, but what a lovely surprise at the end! I wish you a wonderful rest of your pregnancy and thank you for your kind words

I am not broken This is definitely my mantra for the next few days. I've just got to make to Tuesday and then maybe there will be a little bit of light in this darkness for me

I am NOT broken

Started spotting a little bit. But still trying to stay positive.

We're here wicked. I'm sorry you're facing such an unknown at the moment.

I'm so sorry, wicked

Back in the EPU again. Blood is now bright red and I'm really short of breath

Massive hand holding from all of us wicked

Oh wicked.

Have you got somebody with you?

All the best wickedwitch

So sorry xxx

Hope you're not alone, feeling awful for you but will keep faith. Whatever is happening, be kind to yourself xx

Actually not terrible news, for once.
They examined me and initially, my pulse was racing and I was a bit clammy etc, but by the time I had got round to the internal, my pulse had returned to normal and I felt much better within myself.
I had a sharp pain on my side when they were examining my stomach so they wanted to admit me for observations, but when they looked at my notes, it was the opposite side to the pregnancy so they were happy for me to leave.

They couldn't find anymore evidence of bleeding on the internal and my cervix is shut which is good news of sorts, I think?

Thank you all for your hand holding and well wishes, you are all wonderful

Ah bless you how horrible this unknown period is
Are you still testing positive for hcg?

It's madness isn't it. Still testing positive x

Oh my goodness - what a rollercoaster!

Still testing positive abd they don't think it's ectopic or in the muscle? Fingers crossed xx

They won't know until scan on Tues whether its def ectopic in the muscle, there's still that 20/30% chance it's not x

Fingers crossed for the 20-30% xx

What a week you've had! Hope things are eventful until Tuesday.

Fingers crossed for you!

I have everything crossed for you wickedwitch