I can't believe it...

[wickedwitchofwaterloo]

... After a horrible round of IVF that nearly killed me, an early miscarriage several months later and then 5 years of absolutely nothing.

This has just happened today. I am utter shock

I don't even know what to think? If it is in the muscle, then I have to come back to have an injection to make me miscarry properly next week.

Omg finger, toes and everything else crossed for you

Best of luck to you wicked, I have everything crossed for you.

Everything crossed for you here

Aah, everything crossed for you wicked

Apparently I was mistaken. An ectopic in the womb muscle is actually very serious and if left untreated, I could lose my womb.
They think it's a 70/80% chance it is, I need to be rescanned on Mon with a view to possible surgery

Oh dear Wicked, i am sorry.

Go sorry to read this wicked I have been thinking of you today. I hope they get it sorted out for you ASAP.

So sorry to hear that. What a horrible journey the past few days have been for you. Take care of yourself.

People really need to read all the way to the end of these threads before commenting.

Wicked I'm so sorry you have been in my thoughts all day. Take care

Oh no! I'm so sorry I posted without reading all the thread

Anyone who doesn't read the full thread, please don't worry! It's fine, and it's been such a rollercoaster that I don't blame you for being a bit confused

Thank you, as ever for all your well wishes. I honestly don't know how to feel right now. I'm trying my best to keep sight of that 20/30% for a miracle to occur. I know it's unlikely, but so was this pregnancy in the first place. I wouldn't go down without a fight, I'd like to think any would be baby of mine wouldn't either.

I'm so sorry you're going through all this. Is so awful. Keeping everything crossed there is a little miracle in there for you xxxxx

I'm just going to do all that I can do, take it easy and think positive thoughts x

Sounds like a very wise thing to try and do. Thinking of you. I've been through several miscarriages so although I've not been through what you've been through, I know how you feel tonight. Be kind to yourself. Xx

Thank you so much for your kind words

I'm so sorry for your loses x

Thank you. It might not help now but after that I got my miracles. I really hope you do too. It can happen and if this isn't your time (which I'm still praying it is) then I promise you won't trade any of it for the miracle you end up with x

What a lovely message, thank you, so, so much
The fact you got your miracles gives me hope, whether it is for this time, or another

May I offer you hope, too? I lost my first child at 40 to a mmc and never got pregnant after that. Laparoscopy discovered one tube was irreparably blocked through disease and it was highly unlikely I would have children due to this and my age. Last year I gave birth to a daughter conceived with a donor egg and ivf. Here's the thing....I am currently 10 weeks pregnant with a natural conception. We saw the heartbeat yesterday and all is perfect. I am 44 next month.

Our bodies are a mystery. They are weird and winderful. They can deliver hateful heartache, but the good news is we are not masters of them; they will continue to surprise us even when we think time has run out and God has forgotten us. Don't give up hope, OP. You are not broken

Gosh Purdie you have made me well up!!

Oh purdie you have made me sob. I'm so sorry for what you went thru, but my word, what a lovely surprise and addition to your wonderful family that little miracle must be!

You are not broken - that phrase resonates with me SO much. That is how I have felt these last few weeks, utterly broken and beyond repair. But I'm not, and as you and so many other of the lovely ladies on this thread have shown, literally anything is possible.
Even if this doesn't work out for me, I'm not going to let it happen without knowing I kept my head up and I'm going to stay as positive as I possibly can.

Yes to that, but it's okay to feel utterly desolate at the randomness and the snatched hope. The apparent bleakness of your situation is not the full picture - it never is

Purdie what a sad story with an absolutely beautiful end. All the best for a happy and healthy pregnancy.

It does feel like your broken both physically and mentally. It feels like you can't go on, like you can't bear the pain of the loss. The loss of that particular child but also the fear that you will never successfully conceive or have a baby. It's two fold I think when it's a first child you're trying for.
The only thing that used to get me through was hearing how other people had gotten their miracles. After losing several pregnancies, we got lucky enough to finally conceive a healthy baby girl. We both decided we weren't sure we wanted to put ourselves through that again and then fell pregnant as a surprise and now have a 5 month baby girl after a textbook pregnancy.

I was so sure there was something really wrong with me and i would never carry a baby to term. Bodies are amazing. It was like my body needed a few practice runs to get it right but then carried and birthed two beautiful, healthy baby girls with textbook pregnancies and very straightforward labours and births.

Congratulations