I can't believe it...

[wickedwitchofwaterloo]

... After a horrible round of IVF that nearly killed me, an early miscarriage several months later and then 5 years of absolutely nothing.

This has just happened today. I am utter shock

Started bleeding again and breasts have lost their soreness too

I know it's scary. I've been there so many times. We are all here for you x

Oh so sorry to hear :( all fingers firmly crossed for you over the weekend and Tuesday xx

I'm sorry wicked.

Everything still crossed.

I've been following this thread and would like to say I am so sorry you're on this roller coaster right now. Limbo land is just awful.

I really hope everything works out okay and I have my fingers crossed for you my love x

While I'm here I do wish people would read the thread before posting. All the congratulatory messages and 'awesome news!' Must be a real kick in the teeth under the circumstances.

Agreed sarky. How bloody hard is it to rtft?!

Keeping everything crossed for you wicked What an awful rollercoaster you're on at the moment!

Little bit of spotting and feeling super emotional today. Thought I'd thrown out my bank card and it was honestly the end of the World. Need to pull myself together as have to tell my boss there is a chance I might need surgery on Tues. Not sure how to even go about it as didn't want to tell her I was pregnant yet.

I have just read this thread through and wanted to echo others in saying that I am crossing everything for you and am so sorry you're having such a hard time. I also wanted to say (and I hope this isn't inappropriate) that you come across as a fantastic person. Your character and empathy - despite what you are going through - shine through from your posts. I really, really hope it all works out for you as I get the strong impression you would be an absolutely amazing mum.

Good luck with the scan.. Hope all is ok

wicked, will be thinking of you tomorrow. Last year, I had a pregnancy that implanted in my c-sec scar. I MC naturally so avoided surgery, but will never forget the bewilderment and fear.

I now have the most delicious DD who is 10 months old. Whilst I wouldn't wish MC of any type on my worst enemy, I can't help thinking that without the babies I lost (I had another, unrelated miscarriage a few months later), my DD would not be here. And that gives me comfort.

OP, you will get through this, and you are not alone. It will not break you.

wicked oh i am so sad to hear you are on such an emotional roller coaster, I have everything crossed that your scan goes well!

Fx for 20-30% beans!

Oh Sandsnake That was exactly what I needed to read as I'm feeling very low atm! Thank you so much for your lovely words I like to think I'm a nice person, and I'd hope I'd be a good Mum if my bloody body would just let me!
But, and I like to think I'm very much a 'every cloud' person, I've been a nanny for nearly 16 years and I have been lucky enough to meet some amazing children along my journey that maybe I wouldn't have done had the IVF worked or I'd not had my previous miscarriage. A strange way to look at it perhaps but it helps me sometimes

Baking Thank you for your story, absolutely loving your description of your delicious 10 month old, she sounds scrummy So sorry you went thru something so similar, it's the unknown that is the hardest to deal with. It might be ok, but then it could also be really bad - until Friday, I had NO idea such things were possible, much less that it would happen to me. At this point, I think I've made my peace that this pregnancy probably isn't viable so I think my favoured outcome (if I can even use that word) would be to MC naturally... Which is a weird position to be in, how have I gotten into a situation where I am hoping for a MC?

I spoke to my boss and she has been beyond lovely, even thou I have been very vague, so that is a huge weight off my shoulders. Bled a bit more last night, nreats are definitely feeling more normal, just got to make it thru today and hope for okay news tomorrow.

Thank you all again. Everyone's lovely comments are really helping me so much. You are all so lovely

*sorry, that should be breasts are definitely feeling more normal. Never thought I'd miss having such sore boobs..!

Your overwhelming positivity is inspiring wicked. I'm not sure I would be able to carry on with such conviction and level-headedness if I was in the same position.

I hope tomorrow goes okay for you, and if it's not the best outcome then the best of a bad bunch.

Thinking of you, wicked.

Wishing you all the best for tomorrow x

Thinking of you today xx

Good luck!!

Thinking of you wicked

Hoping for good news for you today. Best of luck.

Wicked - having read this thread I think you are incredibly brave. I just wanted to add my own well-wishes for you today. I hope that whatever happens, you are surrounded by kindness and love

This has been lovely to wake up to, thank you all so much for thinking about me. You are all so lovely Thank you so much Pot for your kind words about me

I'm actually not feeling too bad today, which is odd, I thought I'd be all over the place. I feel a little bit sick (poss nerves?) but also my breasts are a bit sore again and I'm not spotting/bleeding so I think I am clinging to my 20/30% as much as I can this morning. I'm actually off to get my nails done, a little bit of calm before the possible storm.

Whatever happens today, I think I'm ready and I will do my best to cope with whatever this crazy ride throws at me. I've got this far.

Thank you all again x