Fifi I'm glad you've got it sorted and as you say, at least you can try to enjoy your son's birthday.
Welcome all the new people.
And if please don't ever feel like that, I lost many pregnancies (including some second tri and late losses) before having my ds, losing a baby is a horrendous thing to endure, but it doesn't mean you aren't supposed to be a mum,it means that your body needs to remember who's boss, get back in line and start behaving itself. I used to give my body a stern talking to after losses, it sounds a bit mad but it helped me to remember that my body not doing what it was supposed to (for whatever reason) was no reflection on my ability or destiny to be a mother. It is hard not to stay feeling that way though.
thelion just wanted to offer some reasurrance about the drinking, I didn't find out until quite late in the first tri that I was pregnant with ds and we had been on a four week long all inclusive holiday at a luxury resort in South America. I had been drinking like it was going out of fashion, we'd only just had yet another late loss and so I was drowning my sorrows. Plus they had pink champagne available and included 24 hours per day, yum! I had also been going in jacuzzis, scuba diving, getting sunstroke, hiking, eating unpasteurized cheese, pretty much everything you shouldn't do. I was terrified when I found out but our consultant said that it wouldn't make any difference and not to worry about it. He said that its only really a concern from the second tri onwards when baby is sharing your bloodstream directly.
I think I'm miscarrying again. Started spotting this morning and I just feel like something is wrong, I've felt like that since the bfp last week actually and I've always just known in past when something is wrong, and sadly I've always been right about it. I'm being scanned in a hour, its very snowy here so had to drag poor ds out into the cold to get into the car, he was not impressed.