I am so so fed up.
just want some quiet time, alone, as FIL is staying, so the idea was he and DH would do day trips with DS this week, letting me have a break. But the weather has been so shite, that they have managed one day out. and I am looking for stuff for them to do tomorrow, but DH is going all grumpy about it, so it looks like I will be taking DS to playgroup as usual in the morning (for the 'ooh, you still here?' comments) then have another afternoon of the men moping around the house bored, whilst I am stuck in the bedroom. Can't watch TV, as FIL needs translation, can't eat the large tub of ben and jerrys in the freezer, as FIL will watch me the whole time, can't even just slob at the computer, as FIL is this presence in the house, feels awkward. He's not a bad person or anything, I am just supremely irritable at the moment, and want to hide myself away. And watch crappy films. And use the toilet whenever I want, rather than waiting for the man gas to leave the room several times a day 
i lost a bit of plug yesterday, but nothing since, so am not getting my hopes up. I forsee induction next week, but suspect I'll call the obstetricians and be told they are fully booked. Am tempted to call them tomorrow actually and see if they can start me on monday, as we only have child care for DS until friday morning, and I know induction can take more than a day to kick in.
used2be I had GBS last time with DS, they told me as we left the hospital with our PFB in his car seat
not helpful to be told in passing as you are being discharged.
god I want this bastard weather to improve, and I WANT A BABY.