AUG08 - Sunshine, Friends, Food, & Fun

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I felt with Clegg that I'd be delighted to have him on our PTA. He had so much more room to manouevre than the others. They can't say 'you can promise what you like because you won't win' so he gets a soft ride.

He does have some interesting ideas, but he'd want to be wary of what happened to the Greens here if he is looking for a hung parliament. They have imploded after getting locked into a dodgy alliance and effectively walking away from their own policies.

I was glad nobody made a hideous fool of themselves as it would spoil the whole thing. They might feel able to risk-take a bit more in the next one.

Randomly, Clegg walks exactly like my friend's husband, immobile to the elbows and then hyperactive ...

DD2 actually woke me with 'morning, cuggle, kiss' rather than the usual squally rant so the day seems brighter already.

Sazzles you have made me remember my first ever taste of a vodka seabreeze, in a swanky bar in Manhattan...20 yr old me felt so sophisticated.

Thanks for all the veil feedback, a decision will be forthcoming at some point I hope.

I am having a bit of a hard time at the moment and have made an appointment with the GP to discuss things. Have reluctantly admitted that I need help (it's only taken me 20 years, lol). My anxiety is out of control at the moment and I'm depressed. Am even considering the inevitable offer of ADs, although I won't accept them without the more important offer of talking treatment.

Well done Cyteen you have taken the hardest step . Admitting that you need help is the first step to recovery, and we are with you all the way.
AD's aren't all that bad, I'm really settled on mine and more importantly I feel positive and happy. I'd happily stay on them for life than feel as anxious and rubbish as I did without them. I agree too, talking therapy is the way to go. With ADs if you need them, but not if you don't. ((((cyteen)))) When is your gp appt?

Glad to hear that you've taken that step Cyteen. There's great freedom in sitting down to talk with someone totally outside the situation. We'll be here to back you up all the way.

I watched most of the debate and it was nice to hear wankers politicians talking without the usual booing and hissing that you get in the house of commons on PMs question time. Not certain what I think really. Don't like Gordon at all but he has done a lot for the NHS, even if they are now trying to dis-invest. I like David but not convinced on how they will fund their policies and they still seem a bit of a party for the upper classes to me. Nick seemed nice, in a way that someone you've never spoken to before seems nice . Oh Lordy, who will I vote for?!!?!?

Nice day here. O just gone to sleep, I'm off to do a spot of tinternet shopping

CC A week on Tuesday. I made sure not to get an appointment with Dr Disinterested (there is always one at every surgery ).

Wise choice my friend, wise choice. Is the gp you're seeing sympathetic?
Dependant on how you're feeling at the time, it may help to write things down so you can be sure to tell the doc what you want to. When I'm feeling anxious/low I usually end up bursting into tears and not remembering everything I want to say (that might just be me though ).
My anxiety was really bad, horrid panic attacks and feeling sick most of the time. I was put on Fluoxetine (Prozac)to start with but it made my anxiety loads worse (it can be a side effect of that particular drug), and I spent 48 hour hyper anxious - not funny at the time but I was so tense I just sat shaking all the time and not able to rest or sleep. That's why it's important to get your symptoms over correctly to the gp so if you both agree to medicate, then you have more chance of getting the right drug that suits you and treats your symptoms.
I'll stop rambling now!!

and Prozac does work for loads of people - including me! I took it successfully as the first ADs i took, after i disclosed my bulimia. Made my hands sweat and shake but it worked

Cyteen, you know I'm behind you 100%. I've been involved in some form of mental health repair for 21 years. Until this year I've never had a negative thing to say about it but there's always a bad apple somewhere. That said, please ignore my complaints this week as SHE was the bad apple. AD's are worthwhile and talk therapy can be extremely cleansing. Tapping, bio-feedback, meditation, hypnosis, and on and on and on and on...there's just so much you can do for yourself with a little guidance from a professional.

DH took DD1 to school this morning. I am doing my best to take a step back from over parenting her. Yesterday I dropped her at the front door instead of parking and walking her in. She's also remained at school for aftercare until 4:30 for two days this week (and again today). I worry so much about doing things "just right" for her and feel crushed when she reacts negatively to me. The investment is too much. She's healthy and smart and needs to be out there a bit on her own now. I have another little girl that I've been neglecting a bit I think. It's Reese's turn to get a little over parenting from me.

Will second Captain's, "When I'm feeling anxious/low I usually end up bursting into tears and not remembering everything I want to say.." Thus my crying bit with bad apple on Tuesday. Take tissue and know it's okay.

I have been on Xanax on and off for 20 years after failed attempts at two other meds that I can't remember now but were Serotonin Uptake Inhibitors. I keep an emergency bottle with me but haven't taken any for 3 years (maybe). I don't even take a full dose (1/2 a .25mg). I take just enough to knock the anxiousness off so I can start my breathing and other technics without trouble.

I am bored. I have lots of study to do but can't be arsed!

Hey Cyteen , better out than in. That really is my motto for everything isn't it? That and 'stop cleaning so much and do something fun'.

My mum just gave me £100. I wasn't even angling for it or anything LOL - she had said she would pay for some boots for me but then I found some for £15 and bought them myself. Will all go toward the mega car repairs I need to start booking bit by bit.

Re voting I think I will just shut my eyes and X where the pen lands (as long as it's not BNP obv.) Have tried (to no avail) to explain to DH that voting at all is the important thing.

you know my son, the one who doesn't eat much? tonight he's had a big bowl of pasta and peas, a banana, an apple and an orange!!!

back later for a chat

Hello my lovelies.

is what I've been busy doing today twitpic.com/1g0zi2

No not changing gravity, making pretty frocks and taking pictures of Izzy in them

Well done Cyteen for taking the big step and asking for help.

Scan and apppointment went well - I have low fluid apparently so am back in 2 weeks for a follow up scan, she thinks that I have a slow leak but nothing to worry about. DD2 is head down so no need for c-section chat. Saw the consultant (not his jumped up little registrar)They have stopped my meds and told me to come back for a thyroid test in 4 weeks then they will see me when baby is 6 weeks - he has no issues with me BF and thinks it will help the baby settle better if her bloods do go slightly off normal.

DD and I went to see NCT buddies at the park and it was HELL - so many small children in a very large area and DD who does not believe in standing quietly whilst the grown ups talk was trouble on legs. I purposely dressed her in bright yellow so I wouldn't lose her.

Dinner is ready so back later.

Hiya Miamla and Steaky.

I started typing my last post before DD went to bed over an hour ago

steaky - good to see you but I can't get on the link sorry

Cyteen - getting to the asking stage is the best first step. I had terrible problems with anxiety after DD2 to the point where I didn't go into shops as I was convinced I was going to set the alarms off when I left (having never stolen anything in my puff) and I'd sit in the car crying if both girls were sleeping fretting over which one to carry in first incase a massive lorry wiped out the one I'd left asleep I was told that it was a symptom of PND, I had no clue and my lovely GP put me in citalopram - was great and helped me a lot. fingers crossed you find what works for you

Cece - get on with your studying

poor D been very unwell all day, has had temperature and been lethargic lying on top of me ALL day - we've been giving her alternate calpol/neurofen all day and trying to top her up with some liquids - I have a feeling its going to be a long LONG night

work phoned at 16:40 to tell DH that his shift on Monday has changed from a late shift to a 7-5pm day shift I'm getting sick fed up with them and their short notice thinking none of us have anything better to sodding to than wait on them calling

HAPPY 12 WEEKS DIZZY

hi oops, that's great news that she's head down but obv not so great about fluid. Don't suppose you remember but low fluid was one of the problems we had with DS,a bit of close monitoring and a few extra scans and DS obv proved there wasn't anything for us to worry about! that's allso good news re meds, glad you've seen someone with a sensible head on his shoulders!

hi steak

Hiya Oops, glad you've had a better AN appt. Toddlers in the park sounds like fun, we spent so much time there last summer it is going to be a bit of a shock now they are all so mobile...

Steaky, if that's the dress on your FB it's gorgeous. Sorry I missed the concern re Izzy's heart, how lovely to have reassurance on that and hope the rest is just the result of the cold.

My friend had a second scan yesterday after one last week showed 'markers' for Down's Syndrome - this one was all clear and after she told me I wept with relief... slight over-reaction?

DH is home tonight when he should be away, thanks to the volcano stranding his colleague in Sweden - sorry if anyone else is stymied by it but .

Cyteen well done you. That's no small step. And BTW I know I'm coming late but for what it's worth, and from what I could remember of your dress or at least dress intentions, I am against the majority and rather love the birdcage veil.

Hullo everyone else! Happy Friday!

happy 35 weeks oops

and ditto to what she said to you dizz!

I forgot to say - when we were looking at the baby on the scan she had a halo and I asked why the edges were so blurry and the sonographer said it was her hair! So it looks like she will not be a baldy like her sister or papa.

Sazz - they normally slow things down and stop them by 28 weeks but I stayed on mine a bit longer just to be safe but the do stop them but only for hyperthyriod, hypothyroid get their meds increased.

Am off to bed as tomorrow is auction day and I need to shop before I go in [seriously disorganised emoticon]