June 2007 - Terrible Twos, oh yes, but their cuteness more than makes up for it :0)

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aaargh, that snuck up on us didn't it?

Im glad you got to meet - so what's Holly's side of the story??!!

Glad you had a good time Daisy, I miss Holly on here, I hope she has a bloody good excuse for not posting!

Thanks for your input on my other thread Daisy and JBM.

ffs
I have been to see HV who told me I may have PND and booked me an emergency GP appointment
GP has decided to call the counsellors out and wants me to have a blood test
HV has put me on a watch list and a HV is now calling me every 2 hours 'to check I am ok'

I have seen HV today, and GP
tomorrow I have a GP and a nurse appt
wed I have a GP appt
friday I have a HV coming round

all because they think I am about to kill myself

wtf?
I am FINE, YES I am tired because neither of my darling children sleep, YES I am fucked off because DS2 has developed screamy projectile vomit reflux and screams all day every day
am I depressed?
Not really... fix the lack of sleep and the screaming and I'd be a FUCKING COMEDIAN

Ach MPW, it's good that they are worrying about you to this extent as so many women slip through the net; although it does sound like a bit of overkill....maybe they have had a bad experience with an undiagnosed patient before?

YMind you, you said looking back to DS1 after having DS2 you felt that you had had PND. Was your HV aware of this? If so she is probably just being extra cautious

But, I'm sooo with you on the restorative powers of sleep. Since bumble started sleeping through a month ago I feel like a new woman again, and my PND feels like it is starting to lift.

you can always tell them that you have the counselling skills of MN if you need it

seriously though, message me on FB if you need to talk it out

Awww MPW....this stage is so hard.....no-one warned me what it would be like going from one to two and it was a real shock. Glad they are looking out for you, but as Daisy said...possibly a bit OTT!

Had a real day today but DS behaved very well for his daddy

It does sound a little OTT,MPW, but as has been said better that than miss it in someone who IS suffering.

Sorry you had a day Norty.

I've had the mother of all headaches all day. Was at the stage where having my eyes open was painful and I was feeling sick as I walked from work to nursery But thankfully Jamlet was so charming it took the edge off it and I now just have a low-grade nagging headache instead.

I'm so sorry Norty. Hope you got through it ok.

MPW - what is going on?

Hello everyone. Just ducking in. Hope you are all OK xx

Sorry you've had a bad day lovely . Been a bit of a shit one here as well. DD has stopped talking and just screeches at everything; it means anything from "i want a drink" to "my nappy is full of poo". I know she is just copying bumble, but it is driving me fucking bonkers.....she commando crawls around the floor gaga-ing and wherever he is she has to be right in front of him doing what he is trying to do and if I tell her to stop/speak/get off the floor/out from under my feet/tell me she has a dirty nappy, she just screams her head off and then has the most enormous legs and arms flailing tantrum. If we say "speak DD, we know you know the words", she just screams even louder. I finally put her to bed at 6.30 as I had had enough by then.

she and bumble fight all the bloody time as well. He had a fistful of her hair earlier, but in his defence she was trying to wrap him in a blanket and he didn't want to play that game.....I bloody hate my life at the minute and feel that if I could just pack a bag and leave it all behind, I would.

sorry, feeling a bit shit, and DH is away tonight as well.

Tell me it gets easier.....foxy (helllooooo btw), fairy, sputnik???? or how the fuck to deal with it as I'm out of ideas.....and sorry MPW, Norty if I've made you think "oh shoite, this is what we have to look forward to in a few months"

Ah well treated myself to a rather expensive bottle of rioja from my latest ebay income, thereby insuring that tomorrow will be another tip top day in the daisy house

feck, listen to me....someone just shoot me will you?

Sorry for everyone's troubles. I got a taste of what it'd be like having 2 when a friend brought her 4 week old round and both were crying at the same time. Even with a full set of parents per child it was a nightmare - so hats off to you all!!

They really are a useless bunch of feckers on the front desk at my local pool/gym. Whenever I ring or call in to ask something/book Jamlet into the creche they are lazy old arses who act like they really don't care and half the time give me duff info or charge me the wrong price! Makes me mad . I just booked Jamlet in for Weds and they tried to get me to ring back tomorrow (she obviously couldn't be arsed to get the book out!) then tried to charge me £4 instead of £2.80 and ended up telling me we were booked in for an hour from 9.30 to 10

Hope you are ok Norty, take care.

Crap, Daisy. It does get easier, slowly but surely. Having a bit of a rough patch here too though atm, DS is not really settling in here very well, he was so happy when we went back to our old house at the weekend, it made me realise. So lots of tantrums, if DD is about she gets upset too, so a couple of ocasions with both of them screaming. Have not been on top form myself so haven't got out to the park or anything, which would probably help.

MPW sorry you're having a tough time too.

But, on the positive side, before we moved things were going quite nicely with DC's, they started playing together much better and DS was tantrumming alot less. We just have to settle in a bit I suppose and find a new routine. DD loves her new school so she is happier at least.
Would help if DS would go to sleep of course. Off to attempt that again.

Hi Foxy, by the way

norty, daisy and MPW, and jammy for your headache.

Am delurking after a week from hell, so bad I couldn't face posting. I don't know if things are better or not, but we are going through the motions of day-to-day, and appear to be speaking, so that's something. We got to crisis-point, DH said there was very little point in me pretending everything was OK, especially to the mental health nurse, and he couldn't live with me through another bought of depression if I wasn't going to admit it to myself and get the help. Not sure what's going to happen, DS1 had 2 bullying incidents at school last week, and then his trip this week, so that has re-focussed things.

hey JBM, good to see you, and sputnik and foxy

bugger, we're all going through it aren't we?

Ria, I thought that things were getting better with you? that you were taking ADs? sorry that things are crap with DH. don't not post lovely; we're here for sounding off to

Ria, sorry things are so crappy for you. Hope things pick up And Sputnik, hope you feel better soon and that the DC settle in.

Am getting a bit stressed now about my counselling assessment on Thursday Not quite as bad as Ria's situation(from her description), but things are getting a bit fraught here too - DH is (understandably) fed up with me. As he puts it "there's always something." And oh god, the headache is starting again even as I type

Hello - blimey, we're all going through it atm

I'm feeling better today.....funerals are so . I was going to go to the cemetery to see my dad on the way home but another burial was on their way there and I couldn't face seeing another funeral in one day .

Ria - have you seen the GP? When is DS1 back from his trip? Hope you're ok. I agree with Daisy....don't not post....come on here and talk to us!

Jammy.....hope your head is ok. Sounds like all part of the working yourself up for Thursday. Once the first appointment is done, you will feel much better I'm sure....try and take it a bit easy if you can before then.

Hi Foxy, Sputnik and everyone . Are you feeling better Sputnik?

We already have a bit of fighting here Daisy....DD says "mine" quite a lot to DS and yanks toys / blankets etc off of him. She really is quite rough (without being outwardly nasty though IYKWIM) and I'm trying to teach her the concept of sharing and make her give things back etc but its not easy. He is into grabbing everything in sight atm as well (and then usually puking over it) and my god, he can scream. His temper is developing and he soon tells you if he doesn't want to! My mum tells me this is nothing compared to what is coming!! Oh joy! All of you with more than two are very brave IMO....

I had an appt with the mental health nurse on Thursday, she said she didn't think I needed to take the ADs ATM, that I'm doing well organising courses and trying to motivate myself etc. DH was really cross that I hadn't opeened up to her about how bad I've been feeling. But, same as posting here, last week I felt that if I let anyone "in" I would lose all the control I'm managing to have on the situation and would crumble. This week seems better so far. DH does not buy in to him having mood swings etc too though, but at least he hasn't gone away this week on his days off.

DS1 is back on Friday afternoon, no contact til then as they weren't allowed to take mobiles and there is no payphone. I reckon loads of kids had their mobiles though. I had a bit of a scare this morning as his head of year rang me (to try and sort out the bullying) and I was convinced it was the teacher in charge of the trip. His coat that he thought was stolen on the bus luckily turned up in the classroom where he had left it before he got on the bus, but it doesn't take away from the fact he is having trouble, he still had his bag taken, and also got off the bus at the first stop in the village because he was getting picked on. The head of year sounds quite militant though!

Am rambling, sorry. Bedroom tidying is stressful, esp when I have to listen to DH not doing a very good job of baggins-sitting downstairs!

Hi All - Everyone seems to be going through the mill a bit at the mo.

ooh, it's all gone a bit bold?

grr. DH is being a pompous arse proper school governor and won't let me take DS2 out of school tomorrow afternoon so I can go to the hospital with him. (DH got offered a cancellation appt. I want to go shopping!)

to hear everyone is having such a crappy time. I can, honestly, say that life with two in that fist year was one of the hardest things i've ever done, and i regularly felt like i wanted to just give it all up and run away. BUT, it is now a real pleasure having two, most of the time.... Don't get me wrong, they still have their moments and do argue, but most of all they entertain each other and adore each other. Hang on in there, and give yourselves a break - you can only do your best, and accept whatever help is offered.

Well today was a bit better, though the head ached still. Hope things are improving for everyone else as well? Jamlet was having a fab time at least when I picked her up from nursery

Busy day tomorrow, gym/creche, children's centre, Sainsbury's delivery and asthma clinic (for me, but Jamlet will have to come too.)

I'm glad things are a bit better jammy. I have the number to phone for my counselling sessions as well. Must remember to do it or I'll lose my slot and need to go through the gP again.

I am having a moment of paranoia about myself. I am so forgetful these days, and forget the names of things and people all the time and quite often when I'm talking, the completely wrong word will come out from the one that I meant (think Ethel from Eastenders). I also can't seem to put a lid on my anger and feel that my personality has had a complete makeover (and not in a good way) and have various things going on with my arms and legs; numbness/lack of feeling, knees buckling, dropping things etc. Should I bother the GP about it, given the fact I'm always there these days and they must have me pegged as a potential munchhausen's sufferer? or chalk it up to exhaustion/stress/depression and hope that things get better on their own?

I feel slightly daft even talking about it as it all sounds a bit stupid, but I'm sure it's getting worse.

daisy. Can you get your counselling organised and talk it through with them - they might tell you whether you need the GP or not. Or your HV (I suppose I am "lucky" my HV has a background of mental health work), but if your feel you need to go the GP then go, sod what they think! Take care.

DS2 was really clingy and sad tonight. Tummy ache and sore throat he said

I am feeling anxious and crap. Haven't even started the embroidered cushion for the wedding on Saturday, and TBH really don't want to go. We are already not staying over as left it too late to book anywhere, and DH has been asked to work Sunday as some staff have walked out, so we will be travelling there and back on Saturday. DH will be driving as he said it's too far for me (near Grantham). Of course, it would probably help if I knew what I was going to wear

Time I went to bed I think. DS1s desk and bookcase to tackle tomorrow!

Just had a huge row with DH Now exhausted but totally unable to sleep Can't even begin to explain what it was about