Heelllllooooo Ladies!!!
Gosh i havnt beenon here for such a long time. Theres too many posts to read through so im hoping that everyone is ok. Ive already said it on FB but congratulations Sarah on baby no3.
Huge congratulations to swotty too. Are there anymore babies on the way?
Ive got lots to upday you on. 1st of all im getting married!!! Its booked for 20th September 10. So only 4 months to go. Im so excited. Can not wait. Its soooo stressful though. Ive bought my dress a "Maggie Sottero - Michelle" its gorge. Our colour scheme is hot pink and cream. Its all going ot look fab.
We went away to Fuerteventura in Sept for what should have been 2 weeks. That was lovely but we were constantly on edge. As you know DPs dad had cancer which was diagnosed as terminal in April. He was plodding on for months like nothing was wrong but then at the end of august he began geting alot of pain. So on Sept 1st he was admittedto the hopsice to get the pain under control and to sort his meds out. We were due to fly out to Fuerteventura on Sept 9th but were going to cancel as we were worried about his dad. We had a meeting with the docs etc and they said that we were fine to go as he wasnt too bad and he'd be going home soon anyway. So we went on holiday. On 5 of our hol DPs dad went home for a few days but then ended up going back in as the pain was getting unbearable. The hospice phoned us in spain to let us know what was going on. The said that there was no need to rush home they just wanted to update us. Then on 8 we had another call but this time we were toldto come home straight away as he had deteriorated (sp?) and was getting worse by the hour. This was on the weds. DP and i did our best to get a flight home but every single flight was full!! The earliest that we could get home was Earl hours of sunday morning and even then that was to gatwick. The days in between seemed to drag. We phoned the hospice every couple of hours for updates (my phone bill is goign ot be huge) be the news was worse eveytime. Saturday finally came and we were able to go home. We landed at gatwick at 12.30am and then drove to Wolverhamptn. We got to the hospice for 3.30am. We were both terrified of going into the hospice but we held hands and went in. OMG i ahve never seen someone so ill . He was a completly differen man. When we left fr our hol he was chasing henley around the hospice and playing catch. When we came home he was litterallyon his death bed going in and out of conciousness. It was just heartbreaking to see. We stayed at his bedside all night and took it in turns tohave short naps. At 8am the nurses came and checked on us an to check Norman. They asked if we wanted to have him blessed as he was near the end. We did have the blessing but it al felt too sureal. I cant explain the feeling of sitting there, waiting and watching for someone to die. By 5pm his breathign had worsened. DP lay on the bed with his dad and said "dad its ok you can go. you dont have to fight no more". Listening to that was heartbreaking. Im sat here in tears again just thinking about that moment. He wouldnt give in though he kept fighting and fighting. He just wouldnt let go. Then at 5.55pm he let go but he still put up a fight. He stopped breathing and we all thought that that was it but then after about 15 secs he started afgain. This carried on for 5 minutes and we all felt like we were on a rollercoaster of emotions. At 6pm exactly he let go for good. It was horrible to watch but also a releif to see him out of the pain. That was almost a month ago now. Weve had the funeral and are now trying to get our lives back together.
We have both thrown ourselves into the wedding. We only booked it Sept 1st so its all a big rush. DP wanted for his dad to be there so weve done it as a last minute thing. Unfortuanatly hes not going to be but will be in spirit.
I feel so sorry for DP and dont know what to say or do half of the time. Its really difficult. His dad and i never really got on because of things that have happened in the passed but since we were told that his cancer was terminal i put the past to one side and got on with him. Cancer is such a cruel disease. Ive never seen anyone die from it and im hoping that i never have to again. Its just awful .
Apart form the above theres nothing much more that i can think of to say. My mind has gone blank.
Our wedding is in Feb and were thinking of TTC again after that. Not 100% sure though yet. Dont know ive id be able to cope just yet.
Our Australia plans are on hold until at last 2012!!! the aussi government have decided not to approve any state sponsorship visas until then due to the job shortage. The only was we can get there before then is for DP to find a job 1st. Its a complete nigtmare and we are so pissed off about it. The best of it is that they still want us to pay for the visa now even though it wont even be touched until 2012!!
Gotta dash Henley is attacking next doors cat . Will try and come back on to catch up more later, Nat xxx
Its been a bit of a rushed wedding