Hi all
Feeling a bit bleeeurgh
Nathan has not been totally well, little appetite, constipated and a bit moany. I think it is teething (he did not want his normal food at lunch but chewed chewed chewed on bread, ricecakes etc)and the constipation which i think in turn is that he has not been drinking quite enough. And of course it has been a hectic few days. But I worry so easily and I kinda feel now he has stopped bf that if he does not eat there is not my good stuff to back it up. Nearly got my boob out again.
Took my parents back to the airport this afternoon and the only sleep Nathan had today was 10mins on the way there and 30mins on the way back, which does not help.
Then I was watching Obama make his vows (v excited about him as new president)and absentmindedly let Nathan play with an empty cola can. We play with empty cans more often, but in terms of batting them off the table, particularly with his right arm. Now he had been playing with the opening and I suddenly noticed blood on the can. Daft thing had cut his finger, not that he cried or anything felt like the worst mummy ever when he had to wear a tiny plaster.
Tonight he has eaten 3/4 of a large cow and gate jar and a bit of yogurt with prunes, so i am a bit happier about that. He has just done a pale very hard poo that took superhuman effort to get out, even had a little bit of fresh blood on it from the straining, he was hanging off me sitting on his haunches going hnggggggg. Hope this is it now. He was very relaxed after, took 2.5 oz warm milk from his tommee tippee rather than the 1oz he normally has in all of 30sec and was in dreamland 30sec later.
To top it all off I am very upset with dh. Feel very neglected. There is a prayer evening on at church tonight with the bishop and an outside speaker. I had agreed with dh over a week ago that I would go and he would put Nathan in bed (now I no longer bf!). He announced tonight that he had not put two and two together and had signed up for a raid in this online game he is in. Guess which one he chose. Could not let him down could he , no but it is ok to let me down. Being a vicar's wife and having a baby my spiritual life is great as it is . Yes of course i could have made him cancel the raid. But I did not want to have to do that. But I feel so unhappy right now...
I hope you are not still reading. Just had to get it out of my system.