Right, girls I need to ask you all a question. Please answer it totally honestly. it'll be a long post so bare with me.
Me and Dh are/were TTC. I was dead set aginst the idea at first but it was Dh who was broody this time so it was nice surprise as ist always been me before(except with ds4-he was unplanned as you know). We deceided to try when we wee in the new house but once we'd moved Dh changed his mind. I was a bit miffed because after being against the idea but changing my mind he left me wanting another while he didn't IYSWIM.
So here we are now and he changed his mind back so we were TTC. For all of 3 days.
Now, we've both kind of thought about it and are having a wobble. I don't relish the idea of being PG again, in fact the thought terrifies me, but I would go through it again because...well....the reward is worth it atthe end, isn't it? and I can't help feeling that this would be my last chance to have a daughter.
we have enough room for another baby as ds3 room is enormas, bigger than ours in fact, so 2 could easily share in there. we have enough space in the car and can affort another one.
BUT is TTC to possibly get a girl wrong?
I know, without any doubt at all that if we had another boy I would love him and adore him as much as the rest. I think I would sad that a ds5 wasn't a dd1 but I know that when it comes to it, it really doesn't matter because after finding out ds4 was aboy at his 20 wek scan and being so gutted, I just adored him from the moment her arrived...I didn't care one bit that he was a boy and not a girl. I felt more love for him at birth then I did for any of the others, he is everything I've ever wanted and 10,000,000 times more...so because of that I'm not sure if I'M TTC a girl or another baby regardless of it's sex.
I think Dh is happy to go along with what ever I want, but he worries about the time he/we gets to spend with the bigger ones when there are smaller ones to worry about too. But then I think that the older ones would be thrilled to have another baby in the house, they love George so much and I really don't think it would be a hardship on them...plus they don't stay little forever as we're all seeing now with our 1year olds.
God, I can't believe I;m asking you all this. I know the thread isn't a private thread and anyone can read it on MN but I thought i'd ask you lot first before I think about starting a thread to ask everyone.
Oh and all this could be pointless anyway because I might be Pg already.