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August Babies ...... part 3

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Katherine · 10/11/2004 09:42

Thought it was about time we had a thread which didn't take hours to load though....

Well caught up with Wills on the other thread and feel so very bad for her. Sending you all my love Wills.

I guess everyone is feeling quite low judging by the lack of postings here but we can't let the thread sink. So just thought I'd tell everyone that DD2 has just got her first pair of wellies. They are a size 4 and her shoes are size 1 so she has to waddle and I put lots of socks on her. but she absolutely loves them. So this morning we are going to go and find some puddles (not that difficult round here at the mo but they have to be shallow enough

I'm not trying to be frivolous but I think we all need a bit of a smile. Hugs all round

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tortoiseshell · 14/02/2005 23:43

Hi everyone - we're all good here. Dd is the cutest thing ever - I am totally in love with her at the moment. She is SO gorgeous. Ds is pretty fantastic too, but, he's 3 and behaves like a 3 year old. Dd is a real little girl now, complete with bunches! She is really starting to talk, and has a beautiful sunny personality. Hope everyone else is ok. xxx

champs · 14/02/2005 23:53

hi kms!!
sorry to hear about spd, what a pity it has started so early. Did you have it in previous pg? Still feeling ill here, clinging to the hope that sickness may start to wear off soon unlike other pg's!! didn't realise you had three kiddies, thought you had 2.

tortoiseshell-- hi!! how rude of me to forget to say hi before
dd sounds absolutely wonderful, must be lovely having a girl. ds sounds just like ds1 when he was that age. is he full of energy too?

ds2 is still small but gaining weight and eating more now. he has a cold at mo so is looking all helpless and sweet. I have caught his sniffles but dont look sweet at all, just pale and snotty with a face full of spots and clothed all tight!! ah well... the joys of motherhood

tortoiseshell · 14/02/2005 23:55

Hi champs. Yes, ds never stops. But he is a lovely caring kind little boy, which I have to try and remember when he is driving me demented! Hope the sickness wears off soon - it's horrid isn't it!

tortoiseshell · 14/02/2005 23:56

That looks like I'm pg too - I'm not before you start wondering!

champs · 14/02/2005 23:59

lol, are you sure?? this thread is like the office chair
was reading something in a parenting mag about remembering the good points about littleuns. tis hard in the mids of a tantrum or stroppy row but works much better than a cross mummy.

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Katherine · 15/02/2005 17:21

HI All. Not doing so good. Found a lump. Got an appointment at the breast clinic on Monday. Feel all over the place. Its a long week.

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champs · 15/02/2005 17:32

oh katherine, ((((hugs)))) heres hoping the appointment goes well. you must be scared and stressed.
wish it werent happening. please let us know how it goes and how you are before then too

tortoiseshell · 15/02/2005 18:02

(((hugs))) katherine - thinking of you.

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Katherine · 15/02/2005 18:31

feel stunned. DH says I have to be positive but its hard - its such a shock. And I don't know what I'm dealing with yet. I keep telling myself that most lumps turn out to be nothing. But there are all these "what ifs" rattling round too. We had a huge row last week. Didn't speak for a few days. Thought it might even be over. But we finally sorted it out and we were like newly weds this weekend. It was so lovely to be close again. We were really looking forward to Valentines. Then on Sunday night I found this lump. About the size of a small grape. Sure it wasn't there a couple of weeks ago as I do check. Saw my GP on Monday. He was really kind. Said it felt smooth which was a good sign and that it may be something from feeding or cutting down on feeding. But he couldn't put my mind at rest till I'd been to the clinic. Hospital rang me yesterday afternoon to arrange an appointment for next Monday. It doesn't feel real. I KNOW I shouldn't be panicking at this stage but I am. I can't help it. I can't imagine not being here. Not sharing them, not being there when DD2 starts school or even nursery. Who knows where it is going to lead. I know I need to take a deep breath and calm down but its so out of the blue. Its half term. I should be doing fun things with the kids but I feel numb and I keep wanting to cry. I just wish it was Monday.

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tortoiseshell · 15/02/2005 18:43

Katherine, it's really hard to keep positive isn't it, but it is true that firstly, most lumps don't turn out to be dangerous, and secondly, even if they are dangerous it isn't necessarily the end. I know your mind is bound to be racing, full of 'what ifs', and I'm sure it will be at least until Monday - I'll be thinking of you now and then! xxx

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Katherine · 15/02/2005 18:57

Oh and I couldn't bring myself to feed DD2 last night. We'd got it down to the last feed before bed. I was kind of hoping to carry it on for another 6 months or so. She doesn't need it but its nice and as she will be the last I don't really want to let go. But when I started it felt all wrong. Like I would contaminate her or something. I know thats a stupid idea but it just didn't feel right. So I just put her to bed and that was that. Feel really sad about it though

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champs · 15/02/2005 22:19

please try not to think about the worse case Katherine, I know it's easy for me to say after all it's not me in your position. I am so sorry this is happening. I just pray it all goes well on mon, gp sounde hopeful which is good. please just try to enjoy kids this week, Just think that all this just makes your kids seem so much more precious,
on another note so pleased you and dh are closer than ever.

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Katherine · 16/02/2005 10:52

Thanks Champs I know I sound very doom and gloom and I don't mean to. I know that the chances are it will be nothing but you just can't help thinking of all the other stuff too. Its lovely day today so I'm going for a walk with the kids this afternoon. I do feel slightly better than I did but then it kind of swamps me again. I feel exhausted with the weight of it all.

When it first happened I felt really alone as my two closest freinds where away on valentines breaks. Now they are back I'm hiding from them as I don't know how to tell them. I can't cope with them getting upset for me but equally I couldn't bear it if they just dismissed it and told me not to worry so either way they can't win. Its amazing all the issues that one little lump can throw up.

How are all the "bumps" doing anyway?

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champs · 16/02/2005 21:45

katherine, of course you are not all doom and gloom and even if you were, you are more than entitled to, I dont know how I would feel or act in your situation. think i'd be in pieces.
How was the walk?
with regards to your friends do you feel you need to have their support before monday? If so then talk it over. If you feel you are ok then you can always talk to them when you know whats what after your appointment.

Bump is fine. Still being ill but not as bad as weeks ago.

KMS · 16/02/2005 23:03

Oh Katherine {{hugs}}
I hope it is just a duct enlarged due to cutting back on the feeding.
I have gone a bit lumpy since we started to cut back a bit.
I hope that doesn't sound dismissive as I mean it to be reasuring.

Hope things go well on mon. will be thinking of you. Do let us know. And feel free to "let it all out" on here.

Good to see you again tortoiceshell

elliesmoomoo · 16/02/2005 23:06

Can I come chat with you guys?? MY DD was born on 1st september 04 but no one is ever in sept 04 post natal group !!!!

champs · 17/02/2005 16:43

hi EM!! chat away!!

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Katherine · 18/02/2005 11:52

Welcome Elliesmoomoo.

Can't beleive how slow this week is going. Not really done anything much. Just can't scrape up the enthusiasm. Desperatly trying to get to Monday but of course that might not give me any answers either. Have decided that DH won't be much use so think I'll leave him at home with the kids. Means I don't have to tell anyone. Just can't beleive we've gone from being so close and happy to this. I can't bear to let him touch me. DD2 keeps wanting to feed and I feel guilty and my kids have had a naff half-term. Feel like I need to pull myself together but the thought of that clinic, of having needles stuck in me and having to strip off like that. Even if its not bad news its still a horrible thing to look forward to.

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Marina · 18/02/2005 12:04

Katherine, how on earth did I miss this piece of worrying news, I'm so sorry to hear this. Will be thinking of you all this weekend and especially on Monday, hope they can give you some reassuring answers right away. I went with a pal who had a similar postnatal lump experience to our local breast clinic and they were just brilliant (and she got the all-clear straight away). I so hope you have a similar positive experience. Is there not a woman friend nearby who could come with you? My friend left her dh at home for precisely the same reasons...
How is everyone else doing (and a big welcome Elliesmoomoo! )
Glad to hear you and bump are well Champs! How is the work situation?
I nearly broke my toe on dd's pushalong doggie over two weeks ago and it still looks suspiciously bent and swollen to my mind. Have been hopping about though.
How is your dh doing Wills?
Lovely to hear how cute your dd is Tortoiseshell. Ours is enchanting us too. Crooning "spoon" and "ball" whenever she sees either, and lifting up her top to show us her little chub tum and then laughing like a drain. She did hurl her christening plate so hard at the wall last week that it broke though
Yesterday ds was prone on the sofa with a bug that is doing the rounds and she went and got him a Bionicle and draped it tenderly over his face
Lots of love and a sunny weekend to all especially Katherine.

KMS · 18/02/2005 20:58

Katherine i hope this weekend goes quickly for you and you get the all clear on monday.
If you feel guilty about not feeding DD2 could you offer her the other side? I know some people have fed from one side only and been fine. Or do you want to stop now?

Welcome to Elliesmoomoo.

Good to hear from you again Marina. We are fine here in the KMS household. how sweet was your DD giving her big brother a fav toy
The words sound so cute coming from their mouths in their little voices don't they.

champs · 18/02/2005 23:56

hi all!!
katherine-- really do hope monday goes your way hun. will be thinking about you also on mon. As Kms suggests, how about givin dd over side for now?
Marina--- hi!! how wonderful to see you! your littleun sounds abs delightful. and how sweet looking after brother. work is going brilliant as I have been off for 5weeks I am dreading going back I can tell you. I just wish I could jack it in, can't afford to tho. only thing spurring me on is that I can see few friends I've made their and couple of fave customers. also when I go back I'll be 4months pg and only have to stiak at it for 5mths till maternity leave.
kms!! Hi!! how is pg going? how are you finding b/f at the mo?

champs · 21/02/2005 01:16

thinking of you today katherine (((hugs)))

tortoiseshell · 21/02/2005 15:18

Hope today went well katherine - have been thinking about you all day. (((hugs)))

KMS · 21/02/2005 17:19

Hope all is well Katherine.(((hug)))

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Katherine · 21/02/2005 18:25

They think its cheese!

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