I'm wondering if it would benefit medical types in their dealings with me. When I signed up to a dentist I wrote on the forms that I had anxiety issues & the dentist questioned me about it in a jokey way & laughed about how they weren't scary. I hadn't written I was scared of dentists specifically, just that I was generally anxious. I'm guessing that I'd have got a completely different reaction from her if I'd written Asperger's on the form. She does strike me as a big of a silly, giggly, girly-girl though so maybe she's not usually very sensitive/professional! It might also help explain to some friends why I cancel things at the last minute & that my anxiety isn't something I can just 'get over'.
I don't know, maybe it's not a good idea. It's not something I'd want to share with people as soon as I met them but I probably would! I have no filter when I'm nervous & trying to find something to talk to a stranger about!
My mum would come round eventually. She just seems to think that insisting someone is 'fine' is reassuring. I don't for a second think my parents have failed me. It's just unfortunate that I went to school at a time when this wasn't well known about & had learnt to mask it before anyone would've noticed. I'm not convinced I'd even be picked up now tbh. I was always a quiet, good student & learnt very early on not to draw attention to myself.
I don't think I'd say anything until I had the diagnosis. I couldn't handle being told I'm 'fine' or 'everyone feels like that'. DM would be very upset that I didn't go to her if she found out I'd gone through the process without saying anything though. She'd say she'd let me down by not making me feel I could go to her. Maybe I could wait until I'd seen someone & had gauged their response from what I understand, you don't get a diagnosis on the say, just a report in the post & then bring it up in a 'this is what I did today' sort of way as if I thought I'd told her about it... I might get away with that!
My sister wouldn't believe it. I know that. I don't think she'd think I was trying to detract from DNiece though. I've always been her biggest supporter in pushing for the help she needs. She'd just insist that it wasn't true because I'm not exactly the same as DNiece. I strongly suspect she's got it too. & probably my little sister. She's completely oblivious to things like what clothes go together & has always lived in her own little world! She's not had the same issues as me though - she found some likeminded girls at her school so hasn't been as socially isolated as me. I'd never tell her that unless she raised serious concerns. She's incredibly sensitive & would lock herself in her room.
I feel like I'm going mad. I keep noticing things & I'm not sure if they're things I've always done or if I'm changing my behaviour to match my self-diagnosis!
I'm just so overwhelmed by the concept that I'm not really functioning properly. DH has next week off work so he can help look after the DC. The last week has been a nightmare! I'm constantly analysing everything I've ever done/said & it's just exhausting! Not sure I'm ready to fight for a diagnosis yet. I need time to process!