BP am in exactly the same boat. Lots of sympathy . It often sucks.
DD was 3 on Friday. Today we were supposed to be having a little party for the family we have (DH's side) which are local. DH and I have had an almighty row. He lied about something inconsequential, I caught him out, he attempted to gaslight me rather than admit it. I lost the plot. In the heat of the moment I told him to leave, it was over and we had better think about cancelling the party. He immediately got on the phone to relatives and told them the party was cancelled as we have split up. So now they are all involved in the drama, ringing me every 5 minutes and I feel embarrassed about the cancellation (I would have had it anyway) but also how this has escalated an argument to something else. I don't know what I want to what to do. I'm more furious he has deliberately involved other people into our fight. DH has now gone to collect DSD and then see his DPs. I think they are all coming back here. DD wants to see them but I don't want to get into the drama. Own DPs are further away than usual (another continent) and I have no family close by to help me breezily carry on, which is what I would prefer. I don't want to talk about things.
I'm fucking sick of DH being an occasional twat but most of the time he's great. But when he is a twat it's real twattery.
He doesn't want to leave. He's sorry etc. I don't have a clue what I want or what to do. Plus I am fucked for childcare if I follow through.
Shit.