I'm feeling a little fragile and sleep deprived. Had a long day yesterday and made a special effort to go for a walk and cook dinner. DH didn't get home til nearly 8 which is when T should be in bed, so I had no break at all, a grumpy baby and had had no lunch. Then I was up feeding at 10, 12, 2:45 (woo, nearly 3 hours), 3:40, 4:20, 5, 6 and 7. Tried keeping my eyes closed this morning after T woke but was still happy, and he was sick everywhere. Cue me bursting into tears :(
His sleep has been awful this last week, waking every 1-2 hours all night long. Last night I realised he's maybe not even hungry, as he seems to settle so quickly and not really drink much. Have I 'trained' him to keep waking for nipple and comfort? I've always fed as soon as he wakes so as not to disturb DH. I'm wondering if ice broken my baby and am doomed to years of this now? He used to sleep so well! Birth till 8/10 weeks he'd sleep 4-6 hours at a time. It's been getting progressively worse since, and at 14w I'm ready to collapse or explode.
To top it all off my dad went in for major heart surgery last week, so I've been worrying about him and the main contact for all my family giving updates to people. He's doing ok now, but there's a chance they'll have to put him back under anaesthetic and try and shock his heart back into a normal rythm. I can't get down to visit him easily, and the hospital really haven't looked after him very well. He's lost over 10kg in weight since last Thursday, and he didn't have any extra weight to lose (he was only 68kg to start with). I really hope they send him home soon, he's got a good friend waiting to take him under her roof and actually look after him.
Sorry for me me me. Just so stressed and tired. I'll go catch up on some of the last few days of posts I've missed.