fThanks all. It actually does help to read that it won't last forever. When I'm in the middle of yet another screamathon, it seems like this is it for eternity.
cake DP does help a lot. We share everything and he is so great with her and much more patient and always tells me that she is poorly and that this is not her character. fBut I think we both need a break. Nobody else can look after her or even dares to, cos she screams the moment we are turning our backs. But we are both getting more and more desperate, and he suggested it's time we just let somebody else get on with her screaming for an afternoon. After all, it seems like she screams these days, whether we're there or not. So I'm almost willing to agree.
The childminder will start in September, but I still wonder how it will work outf.
kkfffood, poo and nighttime sleep are all OK. The only problem is that she only sleeps 1.5 hours during the day and we can't get her to sleep longer no matter what we try. It's clearly not enough but there seems to be nothing we can do to extend that. Our friends really did say that but I don't blame them. It's hard enough being screamed at when you're sober, nevermind when you're hungover.
When I read what you said DH about D laughing to himself, that made me ffeel so sad. M never does, we walk along with her in the pram and she either moans or full on cries, so I just hurry to get to places and never enjoy a walk. I put off going to the Boots equivalent here all week, even though I really needed stuffff, because I just didn't dare go with her cos she would just scream the place down.
ffffThanks so much all for letting me vent on here. I do feel ffbad about it like I'm hogging the thread and also like I'm ratting out my own daughter, but it's sometimes hard to not say anything. So thanks for thatf, and ffor not judging me. fWhen I'm in the middle of it, it seems like I can't take anymore, but as soon as she is in bed, I start fffeeling bad and guilty, wondering if I could have been more patient, where I went wrong and how I could have been so angry about my little precious baby daughter 
. fWhat a weird mixture of emotions. Can I blame pregnancy hormones?
We have her one year check the week affter next and I will talk to her doctor again, but I did before and it was hugely unhelpful. Maybe it really is teething. She doesn't show any other signs, like dribbling or a sore bum but I really can't fthink what else it could be.
fYou may have noticed a distincft lack of fffffs. Well, it's not sorted, but if I refrain ffrom keeping my left hand hovering over the keyboard, like I normally do, then ffffewer fffs appear. So until I can fix it, that seems to be a reasonable, if annoying solution.
So sorry you are still feeling shit memphis. Hopeffully a proper day of rest tomorrow might sort you out.
fHave a good evening all.