Hi everyone, thought I'd get on here and catch up whilst dd is sleeping. Pookey, sorry to hear about the episiotomy thing - ouch! Suzi2 sending hugs to your wee one, hope it clears soon.
The last ten days or so have been hard going here, dd is teething early (has settled over last few days) and has also had a cold to top it all off. Poor wee love has been paticularly snuffly the last couple of days but seems brighter in herself so hopefully we've turned a corner. Hoping she's well before tuesday as has second lot of jabs due, worried that'll knock her off colour again though. Have had a week or so of real highs and lows, I've really found myself doubting my parenting ability and have felt pretty tearful on and off - not helped by dh working nights over the worst of it. Dd was baptised on Sunday which was just lovely, we had a fab day with family and friends. Bit of a panic on the saturday as I just couldn't find anything to wear and even ended up taking back some stuff I'd bought earlier in the week - it all workied out in the end though. I've just felt so helpless watching dd struggle through not feeling great. Keep having to remind myself that I've only been doing this for 12 weeks and that I'm not going to be back in shape or 100% confident all the time - I'm my own harshest critic.
Dd is doing ok apart from feeling so rotten, she has maintained her weight over the last week rather than gaining and I'm trying to offer her as many feeds as poss in an effort to help her recover and build up. We finished our baby massage course Tues, it's been great dd loves the quiet time and attention - been nice bonding time for us both.
Starting to feel nervous about the new year as we've got to move to Dumfries for 6 months with dh's job. Just feel like I'm finding my feet at the under 5's group I go to and getting to know my ante-natal group well, the thought of starting again is scarey - 6 months isn't long and just as I find my feet I'll be shifting back up here again. Everything feels a bit uncertain, I thinkk I'll struggle a little with meeting new folk as I'll not be working and am worried that the initial few weeks are going to be lonely at home. On a work front, I'll officially be a full time SAHM from 11th Dec which marks the end of my mat leave, it'll be strange no longer having a professional id but I'm glad I've got the opportunity to take a break for a while.
Anyway, better get to bed myself, take care x