Hello ladies! Haven't checked in in a while so thought I would say hello :)
gya thinking of you and Tilly especially. I hope she is doing better soon. and wow at thinking to ttc #4 already!!
I've heard a little about these mooncups (from other MN threads) - isn't it messy when you have to take them out?!!
I've started back to work and so far I'm doing ok. Have been doing mornings so far, and I'm really tired. Its hugely emotionally exhausting. Had a minor wobble last week on the way in, felt very overwhelmed by it all, but I'm fine once I'm there. Good news it I hadn't forgotten how to teach! lol! This weeks new thing to face is the parents as I've arranged a coffee morning. (all the same as last years, as my class don't move)Seeing people for the first time I find a huge deal, especially in this situation where I'm the professional.
DH lumber puncture was 2 weeks ago and it was unsucessful. They were unable to get the fluid they needed for the test. It was awful and I've never seen him in such a state over something medical. He has to go in again tomorrow for it to be repeated with Xray guidance. Hopefully we should have an answer before the new year as to what has been wrong with him all this time.
My post-birth bloods (testing me for a range of blood disorders) are back on the 10th December. Bloods being taken again to repeat the same test on that day too. They have to be redone to confirm a consistent result. Keeping my fingers crossed that everything comes back negative. If these are negative there is only a slight chance that a positive would come up on 2nd round bloods.
Other news, I've stopped taking the pill. So I guess that makes us officially ttc again. I'm feeling very mixed up about it at the moment. I know we're not betraying Belle in any way, only continuing with a dream of adding to our family. Its hard to put into words all the emotions running around with it. A few days ago I was excited about the prospect of a new little baby, but when we actually got down to DTD a couple days ago without any contraception I completely freaked out once we'd finished and was feeling sick, shaky, crying. (Poor DH!) Caught me completely unawares, and didn't expect to react like that at all. Anyway, I'm incredibly scared about it, but the fear will never go away and so we're biting the bullet. Those who do pray, please pray that we'll have Belle's brother or sister safely sometime in 2011.
Funny story for you all though before I leave you!! Bonfire Night I got locked in the cemetery. My Grandad died on Bonfire Night 3 years ago, it is also his birthday. Every year since I've taken sparklers to his grave on his birthday. This year, because it was Belle's first we also wanted to take sparklers to her. DH wanted to come with me, so I went up later than I usually would, got there at 4.55, cemetery closes at 5.30. Did sparklers with Grandad, all lovely. Went up to Belle and the lighter wouldn't work properly. DH was determined we were going to succeed and not fail her. I'm so glad he persevered because it looked beautiful with her pink heart and flower pot, but it was 5.25 by the time we'd finished with her.
We raced up to the gates to find them already closed and the man about to drive off. DH flashed the light several times - I can't believe he didn't see us, but he drove off, us locked inside! How naughty to lock up early and not check for people! My first reaction was to burst into tears, but after I'd pulled myself together I thought it was hilirious. Obviously Belle thought this was an funny game to play on her Mummy and Daddy. What a minx my girl is! Loved her sparklers too much I reckon! Anyway, we had to google (thank god for smart phones!) the emergancy council number and sit there for almost an hour waiting for someone to come and let us out! Eventful and unforgettable first bonfire night with Belle!
Hope you are all doing well. Lots of love everyone x x x x x