Well...the thing is. There's an organization called Reece's Rainbow. I don't think it does business with the UK, but it helps families adopt children with Down syndrome from around the world. In other countries the children have almost no chance; they live in a "baby house" until they are five and then are often sent to a mental institution (and the institutions are nightmarish ) to live out their days.
It is very, very expensive to adopt because of the plane tickets, home studies, forms, etc, etc, but on of the things Reece's Rainbow does is help raise funds. I really want to do it at some point and just have to trust that the money will arise when I need it.
DH and I have been talking about having another child (we just have one DS who is 4) and I have been torn over whether to TTC or adopt. I know I really want to adopt at some point but I feel that, at 29, if I want another biological child (and I do) it would be best to do it now. So I could ttc and then adopt in a few years.
But. The Reece's Rainbow kids haunt me. You can see their pictures at the website and I remember all their little faces. Sometimes when I go to look some of them have died. :( Because of poor resources and medical care. They would not have died if they were with me.
Part of me thinks that I should ttc and then work on getting our home study, etc, and all the documents compiled in the next few years and then adopt, while still donating to Reece's Rainbow and praying for the dear little ones.
But then another part of me wants to go over there and get a baby out of that hellhole and bring him/her home now.
I feel like there is a right thing to do, and God knows what it is. Will you pray that He lets me in on it? :)