Right I'm back
That was lush, even if I say so myself.
The thing I remembered the other day was this (and it got me all stirred up again).
It was a little thing, and it sounds silly.
Anyway, when the SW was here, and we were having our talk, at one point towards the end, she said the following. "I don't care how much you drink TBH, you can go out and have as many drinks as you want, as long as it doesn't affect the children".
It occured to me the other day, that to say that to someone who had given up drinking completely, and had referred themselves for assistance, was a bit unsupportive. To put it mildly. She knew that I hadn't had a drink for about 6 weeks at that point, and she knew that my plan was to abstain from alochol completely. I had told her all about it in answering her questions prior to that point.
Remembering that made me feel angry all over again.
For any lurkers who may be there I decided I was drinking too much, in the evenings, after the children had gone to bed, and when my DH was here, who has never been much for the booze and would have one glass (if that) to keep me company. I decided to stop as I realised that it was a slippery slope, and that at the moment it was only myself I was risking, but that could change later. I decided to stop and did, and (as I do things "properly") went to the GP. I asked him if there were any support services to access, he gave me a number. I called them, they said I wasn't drinking enough, they said they would refer me somewhere else. The somewhere else rang about a month later, I said that I was fine and that I didn't think I needed any support after all, and thanks for the call. They asked me a few questions which I answered honestly and cheerfully. None of what I said was cause for concern, as it was teh situation I have described above. An hour later they phoned back and said they had reported me to SS as my children were at serious and immediate risk of harm. So there you have it.