I think K&P chose them together with Zombie, EDBD. Do please shout if you need any help with the crocheting, and I can highly recommend the Bella Coco tutorials on You Tube as a good place to start.
I'm so fucking pissed off and upset. DD1 has just had the most massive - I don't really know what to call it, temper tantrum just really doesn't even begin to do it justice. I can't even remember how it started now, she's been in a bad mood ('on the brink' as we call it in our house) for a few days now and this morning, it just all spilled over. She's always had issues with her temper and I've tried to help her through it as much as I can, but when she gets really angry, there is just no getting through to her, the only way to deal with it is to ride it out until the anger gives way to tears, when you can then start to reason with her again.
Anyway, she came downstairs in a bad mood, I think maybe she was rude to me and so I told her to go away and come back in 10 minutes and it all escalated from there. She's slapped me, kicked me, punched me. I had to put her down on the floor and kneel over her to try and restrain her from hurting herself. I was trying to tell her that I loved her and just wanted her to calm down, she was screaming that I was a fat lump and she couldn't breathe. My weight wasn't on her, it was all held by my knees on purpose, because I AM heavy and I don't want to hurt her by accident. Every time I let go, she slapped my arm. She threw DD2's Breakfast on the floor and then in the sink when I picked it up (it was a croissant). I did then throw it back at her, I was just so cross. It was a pretty good hit, even if I do say so myself, but I shouldn't have done it.
Then, when I was on the stairs with her, she called me a fat bitch and slapped me round the face. And I slapped her back. All that time when I'd been calm, kept my voice level, didn't swear and I fucking lost it right at the end. I'm so ashamed of myself.
DD2 was hysterical, crying because she could see DD1 hurting me and the babies were crying because it was noisy and scary. DS1 was looking after them, he is more than capable of restraining DD2 but I particularly didn't want him to because that's not fair on either of them.
I just feel like an absolute bloody failure. And I don't know what to do, how to handle it. She threatens the other children, although I think that's purely to get a reaction from me, but her behaviour obviously impacts them.
Thing is, the rest of the time, she's lovely. She's growing into a considerate, sensitive and intelligent young lady. And then every now and again we have this. And I don't know how to stop it.
Bugger.