I'm 44. For years I only wanted one. We went round and round in circles trying to decide whether to have another and decided we were happy as we were. I just couldn't face having another baby as I found it so hard the first time around.
I don't know why, but in my heart I always thought another one might come along or I would suddenly feel at peace with my decision. I never have.
It plays on my mind all the time. I talk to friends about it, I obsess about having only one and how many children other people have, it goes around in my head all the time.
DS is now 8 and a half. I'm very old to be thinking about another. DH does not want another. It would be hard but I can't STOP thinking about it.
I know it could be that I'm probably too old now and it's suddenly hit me, I just don't know. I just want all the thoughts to stop-they are driving me mad! I have had counselling but it didn't really help. I was just told to deal with it or try for another basically.
Can anyone relate and how did you cope?
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GreenFingeredGoddess · 01/03/2013 10:50
JM292 · 10/01/2023 14:44
Thank you all for sharing. I wish I found this post in 2013. That’s when we started for #2. I got pregnant quickly but miscarried. I wasn’t able to get pregnant after that. My story is too long to tell but I’ve felt every single emotion on this post. My DD is a beautiful, talented and smart girl. I get so depressed sometimes that I should appreciate what we have but the guilt of not being able to have a second will blind side me sometimes. I’m in a better place today but it’s been difficult. You’re all very brave for sharing your stories.
user1467225901 · 19/07/2023 11:56
Hello
I think maybe I’m only just starting to try and accept I won’t have another baby. But I feel so depressed and upset at this thought, it just takes over everything no matter what I do. We had fertility treatment and I was lucky that it worked first time and we had my son, who is now 7. I had an awful time once he was born and a lot of trauma, some of his first year I barely remember. We tried again for another a few years later but it didn’t work, and now my husband doesn’t want to try again due to money etc. he has other kids from a previous marriage and they are all grown up and one even has their own baby. So he’s a grandparent which he loves but I cannot join in, it’s just too upsetting. I’ve been with my husband for 15 years, and I love him. We tried to adopt but that also fell through due to my previous mental health after my son was born.
I’m 38 and he is 45, he had his kids when he was young so I do understand that he wants to do things he hasn’t had the chance to do before.
Im so lost, how do I get past this?
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