Think I have missed you al, I am tired but do not want to go to bed just yet, feel I need to have some time on my own. SIL and BIL arrived at 5pm yesterday and left at 3.30pm today, I am exhausted, we went to a 50th wedding a/v party last night and were up until 2am, I know we could hace cancelled under the circumstances but we both want to just try and carry on as normal, whilst we can. I worked all day yesterday, doing beds etc, made a beef casserole with red wine and prunes, braised red cabbage, tarte tatin etc for lunch today for them. They didnt get up until 10.30am, didnt want b/fast as they were hung over, then wanted a sandwich at 1pm, so I said well I have made a Sunday lunch and thought wed eat around 2pm. BIL asked what I had made, and said, "oh now, beef with prunes, I dont do that, yuk". How very rude! So it was sandwiches and they left. I then had three beds to strip and felt like crying with exhaustion by 6pm! Kids have been ok today, only Rebecca has mentioned Daddys cancer, tomorrow I must see the head at school, so they can keep an eye for me, poor little things, breaks my heart that they have to go through this. Yesterday I phoned center parcs in Holland as we have a 4 night break booked for the 26th May and asked if it were possible to bring it forward during the kids Easter hols, explaining about Harry. They were super, could not offer us the same v.i.p villa as they were all booked, but could offer a deluxe still with private sauna, and we would get a refund of 72 euros. He then said would we like to book the b/fast package in the restaurant, so that I would not have to cook, so I said yes please, deduct it from the 72 euros. He said no, they would like to give it to us, and then threw in 5 bikes! How kind is that, I could have cried. So Harry will be able to cycle and use the pools etc, which of course even if he felt ok to go at the end of May he would not be able to do. I have been on onlyjokings thread just now, and it felt so weird seeing my name there now for the same reason as ojs, felt shocked somehow that those messages were for me, it all seems unreal. Do you think I should have my own thread, I do not want to hijack theirs? I also don`t want to sadden this thread. Ells bells.......elp!