i want an ample chest!
t&t, see my thread link below, i haven;t the energy to post it all again.
Update is though, he is acting like life is normal and is even 'stopping by' a friends house to sort his PC. This friend I know dabbles in coke consumption also so i will be like a cat on a hot tin roof til he comes home and then if he is even remotely NICE i will KNOW he's been on it again.
Time at my sisters this weekend will hopefully help me think....i have been soooo quick to offer advice on here before 'leave him, you can't stay' and now i can't seem to pluck up the courage myself. Namely beacuse i have no family local, so if i go it's a huge upheavel, i can't work so would have to explain things to my boss, i have to take kids out of nursery, blah blah blah.
you may or may not know i walked out before (not drug related) and so many people got involved cos they heard about it through 'the grapevine', I just don't want that. If I go i just wanna go, fade into background and start again somewhere else.
But then another part of me doesn't want to leave MY house - new bathroom is nearly finished, i'm comfy there, he should be the one that fooks off.
oh grrrrrr, hate him, hate him for making me feel like this.