Paperdoll
I’m a novice and am only 2.5 weeks in but I have a terribly addictive personality too. It’s why I don’t drink or smoke or do anything I know will lead me down an addictive spiral.
I did a lot of reading on matched betting. When I was a kid, my dad had a gambling addiction and a lot of debt. My partner also had a gambling addiction. Obviously the only solution for them both was therapy and a complete self exclusion.
I personally feel that I want money. I want to make money. I know first hand that gambling ALWAYS leads to losing. Matched betting doesn’t. I will make money if I follow the rules.
If I follow the rules of matched betting, I make money. 2.5 weeks in and I’m over £100 in profit from my starting £25. I can see it works with no risk involved. And that is what makes me feel happy with knowing I’m not doing something I shouldn’t.
Yesterday I messed up a bet and accidentally had could have potentially lost £5. Now £5 is small. Especially as it was for a trigger bet which meant I would have made between £12-20 off the £30 free bet it triggered.
So I was effectively gambling £5 last night and I felt fucking sick! My partner was looking at me like I was mad. He said ‘I miss that feeling.’ And I thought I was going to throw up from the nerves.
That feeling is going to keep me away from it turning into gambling, and also the steady profit is a clear sign of it being risk free.