Emmsys angels xxx support for mummies of lost angels part 3 xxxxx

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so here we are on part three, let this one be fun of happy news.....

thank you mollie and vjay feeling very/ at scan. nhs is flipping fantastic, love it to bits but when the system breaks down it stinks. I asked last night if I paid would I get a scan and dr just looked at me blankly. Made us feel like we were trying to slip her some fivers. Its the sunday nightmare, all 4 of my mc happened at the weekend. going off to dust some sandcastles or some other cleaning activity until dh comes in and tells me off.

Hi all

Don't know if you remember me, but I posted just after my 2nd m/c at the beginning of December. I've been pretty up and down (though luckily I managed to get some counselling through work)but feel a little more like my old self

Mermaid I'm so sorry to hear your experience. Its a dreadful time as it is, without having to fight for help .

Congrats to all the bfps!

I start ttc again this month, though I was on Clomid, but have changed to tamoxifen and as they are running some recurrent m/c tests, I won't take that until I've got the results

done some sobbing down the phone and they have given me an emergency scan first thing tomorrow, worn out going to watch some on tele.
heebeejeebee its a seesaw isnt it, good luck with ttc, it sounds as though you are doing everything possible and positive
mollie you are so right about knowing whats next after the numbness, at least the house will be tidy.x

mermaid put your feet up lovey, you are sooo in my thoughts today xxxxxxxxx

Mermaid I am so glad you finally got a scan for tomorrow one less day to wait. Will you be able to take your little tupperware box in so they can do some tests?

I'm so glad to hear you've got a scan. Watch any old rubbish to take your mind off things and I would take the box with you

HeeBee Sorry didn't mean to ignore you on my earlier post. I do remember you, glad to hear you have had some counselling, I did the same and found it invaluable
Hope to see more of you on here, and a BFP from you very soon too

Oh mermaid, so sad for you. Take care hun. I had to wait two days for a scan, it's horrible- you just end up going through that initial (emotional) pain over and over.

thanks barbie, i think the camera lies, most of the time I feel about 90!

Gingermumi I've taken a guess from Barbies FB friends and added you too How are you doing? Have you persuaded DH with your womanly charms that another LO is absolutely essential

mermaidpurse I'm so sorry to hear what you are going through, but you don't have to feel sorry... everybody here understands, you are on my thoughts.

Oh mermaid my poor sweetheart, I could cry for you, I'm fighting tears and feel sick at the pain you must be in emotionally.. You've been so sweet and lovely and I just want to give you a big hug.. This is SO unfair. My hearts breaking for you. What crap treatment you received as well.. YOu must be mentally drained and exhausted - switch off if you can.. I know the numb feeling all too well. Why does this have to keep happening..? Theres nothing any of us can say or do except we are all so so very sorry for you my darling.. Come on here and shout rant rave and cry your eyes out whenever you need and we will all be here to give you constant virtual hugs.. xxxxxxxxxx

Hi everyone,

Sorry been missing the last couple of days, been way too busy at work but I've had enough so not talking about that for now.
Still been feeling sad about SIL, she has been going thru a tough time physically, long story short she need an emergency ERPC on Friday night as she started losing blood fast, in the doctors words if she didn't get it she 'would bleed to death on the table'. She is recovering now but she has lost a lot of blood, I guess no-one prepares you for this of mc.

mermaid so sorry this is happening again to you, as for the hospital don't they have an ounce of compassion. At least they finally arranged a scan for tomorrow, I agree with the other girls I would take your little box with you. Take it easy and we are here if you need us xxx.

barbie sounds like you are enjoying the sunshine you lucky lady. James is such a sweetheart getting you some extra web time. Might just need to join facebook looking at what you have started here. You know I have just realised every time I post to you I'm smiling............you have that effect on me hun. Take care

vm hope you are taking it easy young lady, time to give into your body and go with the flow for now. It's hard work baby making.................mm's exhausted at the thought. Please don't think you only come on here and moan, you do so much more than you give yourself credit for. Anyway with or without your moans I'd miss you too much if you weren't here. Take care

mollie I don't see the consultant again till we get the results back. I am trying not to think about them too much, I know they are due back anytime but they may be later due to the Christmas period. Are you're results due back next month? I guess we are kind of in the same boat atm. It's nice to share it with someone...............don't know if nice is the right word but you know what I mean.

lobeov welcome to our thread, they are are the best bunch of ladies you will find as you will already be finding out. Just thinking our thread is becoming multi-national with you in the States and barbie in Dubai.

vjay hope you are feeling more relaxed now, well as calm as can be expected. How are you coping with the preg symptoms. Take care

heebee good to see you back and fingers crossed for a BFP soon for you.

blue hope you are good and that gorgeous DS of yours is keeping you busy.

Big hellos to everyone I haven't had time to mention in person sabs, 4ever, ginger, curly, scamper forgot how long takes to catch up mm xxx

Thank you ladies !!!to all of you...It has been a hard weekend

Mollie. Have had long talk with dh and tbh i think we're both a bit scared of another mc. we kinda decided that we'd just go for it for a set time and if nothing happens then fate has intervened. we have a lovely ds (and i have 2 grown up dds), it would have been nice for ds to have a sibling near his own age and of course now that dh has realised how wonderful it is to have a child he regrets leaving things so late as another would be wonderful. We will count our blessings to have ds together and anything else is a special bonus.

MM your poor sil, thats so scarey.

Hello to everyone else, am at work (teaching evening class) so had better go

Mollie have just checked FB and you haven't added me! Try again, if no joy i'll give you some more info

Mermaidspurse I am so sorry honey. This is so horribly unfair. I'm glad you've got the scan tomorrow though it breaks my heart to think of you going through this all over again. We will all be thinking of you tomorrow. If there is anything I can do please just ask.

Hi mm, i've been having a lot of cramping pains today, but have been taking it easy. I'm trying to relax, but it is hard. The constant sickness is reasuring.

mermaid, hope you are doing ok, you haven't been far from my thoughts all day xx

Mermaidpurse - I'm just gutted for you, absolutely gutted . Will be thinking about you tomorrow, its just so bloody unfair.

MM - your poor SIL, as if having an ERPC wasn't bad enough, that is just so scary.. What days do you work, I'm off Tues/Thurs and could pop through to Glasgow one day next month for coffee herbal tea and cake?

lobeov - how are you doing? I had an inkling your were from America as you referred to you OBGYN (you don't watch 14 series of ER without picking up the lingo!)

Sabs, Barbie and Mollie - have started having a peek at your (gorgeous!)photos on fb -I need to set aside some time as I could look at photos all day!

I have my first consultant appointment next Monday - let the fun and games and blood tests begin..

and hugs to all and sticky thoughts to VM, Vjay, sabs, 4Ever and Scamper x

mermaidspurse i am so sorry, my heart really goes out to you...i hope we can help in any way...just let us know what we can do....hope the scan is not too difficult for you tomorrow, let us know how it goes...

barbie, blue and mollie you are now my friends on FB too, yay! I just hope i can remember your RL names and not get any of you mixed up!

mollie glad you enjoyed the pics...ive got like over 30 albums on there, im a bit of a FB freak! [shame] as well as MN, lol...i promise to stop reading bad stuff on the net....

jools hope youre feeling a bit better today..thanx for your positive note...i'm now 4+2, but still knicker checking constantly [shame]

curlywurlee got everything crossed for you for Feb....so very true about what you wrote to lobeov about people in RL expecting you to get over mc but on here, you can air your true feelings...i dont know how i would have gotten through the last few months without you lovely ladies...(feel like im going to cry!!)
Hope we are still in touch when you do plan your trip to India....will bore you with info!..ive been married 4 and half years and still miss DH whenever he goes away or even when i go away, how sad!

lobeov sending a hug your way.....I got family in Orlando and Satellite beach which is near Orlando...i went there over 10 years ago...

heebeejeebee nice to hear from you..sending lots of baby dust your way...

*gingermumi what do you teach?

vjay hope the cramping has eased...take care of yourself

Sabs waves to mm scamper vm and apologies for missing anyone else

watching the footie and its snowing in liverpool...not down here in London (well i dont think it is, being far too lazy to go to the window to check...)

blue yay another ER fan...though ive missed the 1st 2 episodes of the new series...need to catch up online...

good luck for monday...

Sabs - rumour has it Carter and Dr Green (RIP) make an appearance as its the last series ever... watch this space AND Grey's Anatomy returns on Thursday (note to self, get out more).

Another ER fan here - have seen every series

You are still in my thoughts mermaid

Having a bad day here - have been sobbing uncontrollably this evening - for no obvious reason and can only assume that the arrival of AF has brought a few hormones with it I keep waking up lately reliving the conversation I had with the antenatal unit whilst standing in the bath, miscarrying, sobbing and terrified

blue I work a shift rota 4 on 4 off so my shifts change every week, but coffee herbal tea and cake sounds good let me know when you can make it and I will see what shift I am on then. I am sure we will work something out............mm's smiling away here!!!.

Oh jools sounds like hormones and sad memories are kicking in today for you. The physical symptoms of AF are such a horrible reminder and the memories are all too raw. It takes time but it will gradually get easier hun xxx.