Emmsys angels xxx support for mummies of lost angels part 3 xxxxx

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so here we are on part three, let this one be fun of happy news.....

Villagemum that is totally FANTASTIC news . I am so happy for you - you so deserve this. Fingers crossed for VJ now.

Ginger well done for getting back to work. Take it easy on yourself though, you may be a bit vulnerable for a while. Lippy, I'm so glad things are progressing for you on passing the clot. It helps when the physical stuff sorts itself out.

I had my consultant appointment today and it was just blood tests for the clotting thing. She was also very reassuring about getting early scans etc next time. I went into work afterwards though and just felt like crying all afternoon - then got home and let it all out. I've been so up and down this week - probably just tired really and anxious about getting through xmas. But my lovely DH has cooked me dinner and bought my favourite wine so things seem alright now.

Lovely to have you back monkeysbumsmum. I remember seeing your name when I first joined and it really helped to hear other people's experiences.

Hope you feel better soon MM

Big hello to Jonesy, Blue, Jools and Mollie and everyone else

why do i still feel like i just want to end it all how much longer will it all go one 4 cant take much more each day is a effort to get through

Hey Daisysmummy. Just logging out as I'm heading to bed and I saw your post. I'm worried about you. I think you may have depression. Please speak to your doctor again because you can't get through this alone

I know things seem awful now but it will get better. There are a lot of girls on this forum who can understand at least a little of what you are going through and are totally rooting for you. You have gone through the most horrible year but please try and stay strong for your little girl.

I'll be online tomorrow morning if you want to chat

xxx

daisysmummy, I just wanted to second what curlywurlee wrote - please try and see someone who can help you through this. Feeling depressed after what you've been through is totally normal and nothing to be ashamed of. It's not your fault and it will get better, but you can't do this alone... we'll all also be here for you but please see your doctor, hun. Thinking of you.

I'm so touched by all your good wishes and warm words girls - thank you.

mm, thanks for your kind and wise words (as they always are!!), you've made me all teary in the nicest way. I'm just trying to take it day by day, as you say. I've booked an early scan for 7 weeks and am using that as a short-term milestone - if I can get there and if things are OK then I'll start to think of the next stretch...

blue, I should still squeeze into late August so will pop over and join you on the antenatal thread soon! Thanks for all your kind words too!

Hi everyone,

Time to catch up before really Chirstmas takes over:

Well feeling much better after last week, was flat out in bed for two days and only now beginning to feel amything like normal, at least it wasn't during Christmas. Almost ready for Chirstmas here, but lots of wrapping still waiting to do.

vm Have filled barbie in on your news, I'm sure she will pop in when she gets the chance. As for you getting teary, we've shed many a tear on this thread it's good to now have the happy tears.........let't keep them coming.

barbie thanks for the text earlier, you said what I am feeling hun. Will cat you later as promised, take care.

daisysmummy can only agaree with what curly and vm have both said, we are here if you need us.

curly hope you are feeling better, the emotions are so exhausting at times but it is amazing what a glass of wine can do.

mollie hope you are good hun, I have also been lurking a bit this week, don't stay away too long.......miss you.

blue so both you and vm due in Aug, I'm so excited for you....getting butterflies as I type this. 2009 will be a happy year for us all.

jools hope you are feeling ok after getting your AF, just means you can enjoy yourself over Christmas like me!!!

monkeysbum so good to see you back, so if you are having a quick lurk remember you have been missed hun.

jonesy sounds like you will be having a nice time in London, hope you enjoy yourself.

vjay hope you have had a great weekend in Cheshire seeing all your family.

sabs don't know if you are away yet but just in case I catch you hope you have a great holiday with dh.

And for all of our newbies Lippy, Gingermumi and Wannabe sorry I haven't had a chance to properly welcome you yet. Sorry you had to join us but you are in the right place as you are already finding out.

Hey mm great to hear that you are feeling better. Just wanted to say a quick hello to everyone before I set out on our mother of all road trips to visit relatives. Should be back online tomorrow eve when I get to my parents so I will pop in then

Daisysmummy, here's a big hug in the meantime. I hope you are doing okay hon.

Lots of sticky thoughts for you VM. I'm looking forward to joining you in the New Year when we get to go ahead to TTC.

Scamper if you see some mad burd waving at you as we go through Deptford, that'll be me

I'm new to this thread after an excellent recommendation from a lovely friend of DH.

After an IVF pregnancy at the grand old age of 42, we lost our first little 'Critter' at 19+5 beginning of Nov after a long, drawn-out MC which ended with me being induced and operated upon. Total devastation is pretty much all I can say about November. Last week we had a lovely memorial ceremony - followed by my first AF ? which threw me back into a grey dog kinda depression. How long does the flippin? hormone storm last?!

That said, I'm having an ok week so far - I think the lack of sleep means I can't think too much! Am however very 'bah humbug' about Christmas so any tips about getting through the 'festive' period (which DH loves and I just want him to be happier) would be greatly appreciated.

Oh curiouskitty I'm so very sorry that you've had to go through that - it must have been shattering. I had a mmc in early September and I felt almost psychotic for about two months afterwards, the pain was just so intense at times. In my experience the hormone storm can last a fair bit; don't listen to people who tell you that you 'should' be on the mend after a few weeks or even months - just take your time and work through it at your own pace. If a basket case like me can pull through it then you will too, I know it. The girls on here are wonderful and will hold your hand all the way. Sending you many many hugs. xxx

Hello, I got home yesterday after a lovely weekend with family and friends. Just logged on to see vm's fabulous news, congratulations, and I think I'll join you, I got a BFP too!!!. Can't quite believe it, and I'm going to stay round here if that's ok, I'm not ready to join the antenatal threads just yet. We are taking it a day at a time, and not telling anyone in RL, just you lovely ladies xxx

vjay just seen your news, congratulations!!!!!! So fantastic to hear so much good news after the last few months. You can stick around as long as you like hun, take care mm xxx.

Thankyou mm

Oooh FANTASTIC news CONGRATULATIONS !

What a great month for Emmsys Angels

I'd convinced myself I was having breakthrough bleeding after an anovulatory cycle, then read on another conception thread who, exactly like me, had spotting for 9 days then did a test just to rule out being PG and got a surprise BFP. I've felt really nauseous this morning so am probably coming down with something but may have to test tomorrow or Christmas Eve just to confirm this is a bug

Hi Villagemum, huge thanks. I'll lurk for a little while and take hope from all the good news re the BFPs.

just a quick one but CONGRATULATIONS to both vm and vjay I am so happy for you. Thanks for sharing your good news with us.

curiouskitty sorry you have had to join us. Hope things get better for you soon.

daisysmummy hope you're feeling better.

Sabs waves to everyone else. Promise to catch up properly later on, definately before I fly out on xmas day.

I'm so sorry to put a damper on all this good news (CONGRATRULATIONS Vjay!) but I had scan this morning as had slight bleeding yesterday and they couldn't find a heartbeat . They were trying to give me hope by asking if my dates were out but you know how accurate we all are with our OPks and bd so there is no way lo is only 5 weeks...

I'm booked in for a ERPC on 5th January so hoping it all comes away before then.

You have all been there before so can relate to my feelings of devastation, numbness and shock. I really thought this one was a sticker as I had been feeling so sick but no it wasn't to be.

I think I may give mn and ttc a rest for a bit as I just can't handle it all.

blue (feeling very blue today) x

oh blue I am so so sorry. I don't know what to say, but that I am thinking of you x

blue i want to second what vjay said. I am so so sorry to hear your news. Will be thinking of you...

Oh Blue I am SO sorry to hear that I don't think I could say anything that will make you feel better right now, but will definitely be thinking of you over Christmas

Big hugs ((((())))))

Hello There ..... long time no chat!

I was on here in late September following my mmc at 11 weeks, and I also remember some of you from the April 09 thread.

I disappeared in October as I needed some time to myself to recover, but desperately wanted to track you down to tell you my good news as you were so supportive when I needed a friend.

I got a BFP this morning!!!

EDD is 1st September, so very very very early days yet. I'm feeling quite scared, but very very excited. I'm considering going to bed for the next 3 months to keep my little bean safe!

Fingers crossed for all of you girls. This is proof that it can happen again quite quickly!

lixanismapolium thanks for the update and congratulatins to you too. Your situation is quite similar to mine, as I too had a miscarriage in late sept and was 11 weeks. I have now had my third AF since my mc and will be trying again now. Your story gives me hope!

Blue I am so so sorry to hear your news my lovely, fully understand your need to take a break but we are here when you need us. Life is so unfair and I really hoped that this was going to work out for you this time, huge hugs to you and your DH
lix Congratulations Sending you lots of sticky thoughts

Oh blue wish I could find the right words to say I am so sorry for you and DH. Life can be so cruel with the symptoms you had. You will get thru Christmas for DS, I did it last year when I had my first m/c on 16th Dec 2007 so I can relate to where you are. You know we are here when you need us. Thinking about you hun mm xxx.

lix congratulations and like molly says sending lots of sticky thoughts.

Thanks guyd, your kind words are very comforting.

I'm just utterly heartbroken at having lost another lo and the cruelty of it being a MMC and the fact I still feel sick as a dog and can't even take comfort in a large glass of red (bleugh).

Please God let it all come away soon so I don't have to carry this lost lo for two weeks, I think I may just go mad with grief if I do.

As my wise old Mum says "this too will pass" x

Thanks guys, your kind words are very comforting.

I'm just utterly heartbroken at having lost another lo and the cruelty of it being a MMC and the fact I still feel sick as a dog and can't even take comfort in a large glass of red (bleugh).

Please God let it all come away soon so I don't have to carry this lost lo for two weeks, I think I may just go mad with grief if I do.

As my wise old Mum says "this too will pass" x

sorry PC malfunction